live for you

[frozenstorm]

The water turns to red
swirling from the sky
sweet blood upon my face

i should of helped to save you
instead i pulled the trigger
of that gun against your head

now i know
what i should have done
so you'd still be here

i should have stopped
and reminded you
that you are always loved

but look at me now
out in the rain
your blood upon my face
staining your clothes
staining our past
and all the laughs we had

i cannot fear it any longer
i will not live in your stead
now i will be
the next one dead

so help me now
and lift that gun
as i have done for you

but that you cannot do
for you are in my head
the darker side of me now gone
and i am in its stead.