Depression, oh how I despise you...
Depression, oh how I despise you...
I know I have already posted a lot on the problems I was trying to help with and I feel bad posting more bad things in my life. I feel like I am using this forum too much for a lot of things. Either way I feel awful and I really want to talk. I am just about 16 (I am very sorry for the rule break but I felt I was close enough to the requirement to stick around). I am a sophomore in high school at a school none of you have probobly heard of. My problem is pretty common I guess. Depression, few friends, and having no social life because I am not wanted for the most part by others my age. I can't help but cry when I realize how true these things are. I only talk to one person on a regular basis anymore. I am never invited to anything by anyone minus that one friend, but even that is rare. I don't do drugs or cut myself or anything, but I want to die. I could never kill myself though. I would give up my life doing something that would save someone who would otherwise be lost. I guess I just want a feeling of belonging. I just can't stand this depression right now. It is intoxicating. Please, if you can't do anything else, please just talk to me right now, I have no one right now besides my one friend but she is out of town right now. Please.
Awww!!!! I'm sorry, but that's the first thing that crossed my mind...Here's a secert i broke the rule but i was very close to 16 when i made the account. Anyway, don't feel bad, i think your going to be fine, don't get depressed over not having a social life, it's to much of a hard work to keep up with. And im dure you have friends, i have a few i trust and a few that worship me. (But id give them all up for one very speical someone my bff ) You shouldn't get ssad over many things, i get the same way only i bite, and kick, and punch, and rant and scream, and im crazy don't listen to me
Hey Drsrh
Just wanted to say i can relate to you alot. I am 18, and suffered from soical anxiety for a number of years, im doing much better now but it was terrible through the age of 12-15. I didn't have many friends, and ended up with no social life with in turn made the anxiety worse.
Its funny now as i have way to many friends and wish they would leave me alone! lol just keep going, lean on the people that are there for you (my mother saved my life ) and it will get better!
Just wanted to say i can relate to you alot. I am 18, and suffered from soical anxiety for a number of years, im doing much better now but it was terrible through the age of 12-15. I didn't have many friends, and ended up with no social life with in turn made the anxiety worse.
Its funny now as i have way to many friends and wish they would leave me alone! lol just keep going, lean on the people that are there for you (my mother saved my life ) and it will get better!
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It is shitty to be in high school. It hasn't been too long since I was right were you are. My last year in high school I only had 1 friend who was always telling me how much of a screw up I was. I did use drugs and all that noise because I was dying inside. There are many people here on this site that have been through some rough things and are willing to listen. Don;t feel bad about posting your problems that is why we have a Teen concerns forum. If you ever want to pm me feel free I am normally on 3-5times a day so I will get back to you quickly.Keep your chin up. I swear it normally gets better when you graduate.
Hey there, if it helps I just want to say that I know how you feel. I suffer for depression and have been depressed since I am 8 years old (I am almost 18 years old) and I know how bad it feels to be alone and not have someone who can support you. I just want you to know that things will get better, they always do. It's better to have 1 good friend than many bad friends, and that comes from someone who doesn't any real friends but is always partying and invited to social activities, so believe me when I am saying that being invited to parties and such won't change the way you feel. I hope you feel better soon and you find the path to happiness. May the Goddess bless you! And if some day you are feeling alone or in a depression crisis my mail is v_lacave@hotmail.com (this goes to everyone, really ) I'll be glad to help.
I understand your pain, at least a little, even if I've never been there myself. Everyone here is here to help you, I think. I am sending mental hugs your way, and a wish for you to find people that will love you in every way. Feel free to pm me. Like attracts like. You will meet people someday. I can promise you that.
You are loved always.
You are loved always.
lasto i lamath, erin gwaew, i lammath lin edair. avo osto! aphada ven thanc, ar u dhir tira. last' inn tegitha...
Mornië illumë na mahtanna calina...
Mornië illumë na mahtanna calina...
You guys are all awesome! I know it's been a little while so I'll give an update. Things got really bad and I almost ended it all, but I'm doing okay now. Things are finally turning around and although there is indeed sorrow in my life, I need to learn to live with it rather then do nothing or try to escape with suicide. Thank you all so much for all the kind words though! I am very sorry that I haven't said this yet, but I've been trying to back off for a while and try to find inner peace. It's starting to work and I am starting to understand why I could never find it before. Once again, thank you all so much! I appreciate everything each and every one of you have said to me during this one of my darkest hours. Thank you!