This was stated on another thread http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... 25535.html.* having dreams or visions in which they are visited by a "spirit husband or wife" who has intimate relations with them, teaches them, gives them helping spirits of certain kinds, and so forth. Often this "spirit husband or wife" will threaten to kill the potential shaman unless he or her [sic] accepts both them and the call to shamanize.
I think this is what happened to me. I have been deathly sick before, and have hallucinated demons climbing up the walls and over my body. It wasn't scary in any way, in fact, it was comforting.
But this particular quote sticks with me.
I do feel as though, for a long time, that I've had a spirit husband. Here are some reasons why:
Ever since I was young, I had always felt as if someone has been watching over me. Someone who is intimate and close. It shares my secrets. It understands me and comforts me through the hardest of times.
Most recently, that other side has been in touch with me. In trances, it speaks to me in a language I don't understand. It possesses parts of my body, stroking my face and speaking sweetly to me.
It has been territorial and possessive when it comes to my boyfriend, someone I can see as a husband. It feeds me dreams thinking that my boyfriend is cheating on me.
It also knows my darkest sexual secrets. And, in rare moments, it comes to me in my dreams as I want it.
When I've journeyed, he has talked to me. I believe he is a large, powerful demon guide.
I don't know if this has been anyone's experience. I decided to make it a separate thread in case I'm not alone.
Has anyone heard of this?