Healed, or only Numb?

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

A little over a year ago I attempted suicide. I'd thought about it for along time before then and a long time since.
It came at a very chaotic time of my life when I felt despair from a relationship, family life, my future, etc
Since then life has stabalized a little. I've never been to counseling. I feel less chaotic but it still creeps up on me- what I call My Bad Days- which is generally when I feel this ball of emotional pain and tightness in my chest and stomach. I cry for no reason. I feel like I can't get out of bed.
Recently I've begun to hve anger problems- rages as a result of frustration.
But when I remember my suicide attempt I can't feel any emotion conncected to it. In fact, the very traumatic memories of my childhood no longer bring up any emotion at all (except on my Bad Days). So i feel like it would be pointless to talk about them to a psychiatrist.
I don't feel anything from these memories anymore, so am I cured? Or just too used to it?