Every single time, im trying to communicate with Hekate. There have been a few times ill see (just for a split second) a pale face, dark haired, dark eyed woman looking at me sternly or annoyed, grimacing. I honestly feel it MIGHT be her but dont know for sure.
This morning i tried once more with a guided meditation from youtube and really felt and say nothing worth talking about except when i was about to drift off into REM state i saw my own face in a mirror looking back at me, once again, annoyed with frown lines and brows lowered. It switched over to me looking at myself walking towards me from my bedroom hallway as if i was in a hurry to get somewhere.
What do you suppose im doing wrong and what do you suppose this means?
On a side note, i do work with tarot and pendulum (though im thoroughly convinced it's me who is moving the pendulum) and im also ok at scrying with fire, blank walls, and the darkness behind my eyes when i close my eyelids.
As a matter of fact, once i close my eyes, i automatically start scrying within the darkness that my shut eyes are providing and i use those yellowish/red/blue/green/white colors to create images.
Anyone have any advice? Perhaps im rushing or not trying hard enough?
My goal is just to ask Hekate what she wishes for me and to honestly see if she's still there, watching from afar? I feel ive lost her.
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