Love spell to get my soulmate back? Pls help I'm begging you

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Dear EUM's members,
To make a long story short, I have lost the love of my life.
I am 20 years old gay male, and my ex wanted to take a break with me (a.k.a break-up) 2 months ago.
We met last year in June. The first time we talked to each other, we hit it right off the bat and we INSTANTLY fell in love with each other. We were COMPLETELY heads over heels in love and I can even say that he was even more obsessed with me. He introduced me to his friends and family. I like them and they like me too, his mom loves me. It's a long distance relationship (7 hours away) but whenever he goes back home on breaks or vacation, I would stay at his house in long island NY and spend much of quality time with him. He loved me so much, he planned to propose to me, adopt kids with me, travel around the world, move in with me (which supposed to be this summer), and everything else. His letters and messages sound like they come straight off a novel or a movie, but they were genuine I can feel it. Actually, if I would write my love life into a movie, I think it would be successful lol cause it was THAT much romantic. He even spent 3 months painting me something really good that was worth 1k$ if he sells it. He never painted something that meaningful before to anyone, not even his family.
He was my first true love, I lost my virginity to him last year when I was 19. He had 2 previous relationships however. First, is with a girl, for 3 years but then he had to let her go because he's gay. Second one is a guy, he broke up with him because he didn't treat my ex well. When he was breaking up with his ex, I was talking to him, so he kind of broke up with him for me, but that's not how we both looked at it since they were already breaking up anyways.

Skip forward, I spent thanksgiving and christmas with him and his family. He bought me plane tickets to visit him in Rochester, NY. Last December, I came out to my mom and she didn't accept it well. She sent me to my doctor and my doc lectured me about being gay. I felt betrayed and got really depressed and anxious afterwards. I've always had anxiety/depression problems, but this incident escalated it for some reason. I have been feeling down from December to January and I was very unmotivated in life and he thought that he couldn't make me happy. On top of that, I have been nagging him about my problems. He has an extremely busy life, but that's because he chooses that kind of life. He loves being busy, but lately he's just overwhelmed with everything. His graduation is coming up very soon, he's going to move out and start working in a big company (goldman sach). He has ALOT of paper work due, and also he's the president of his fraternity so he has to go to meetings every night. On February 27, he told me he wanted to take a break.

Now here's the thing. NONE of his best friends, family members, and me know exactly why he took a break with me. It's all too SUDDEN. It's like walking on a beautiful garden on a peaceful day, then suddenly a tsunami strikes from the side. His reasoning was, and is until now : I need some time alone, to focus on myself. I have been in relationships for 5 years and I don't know what I want anymore. I need to be happy on my own. I need to focus on myself. You also have alot of soul searching and growing up to do, so I think we both need to take a break.
I know for sure there's no other guy involved because he's not the type to cheat, and he loved me so much. He told me how I was out of his league and he never thought he'd end up with such a 'perfect' guy as me.

I have NEVER believed in magic and witchcraft and such, but after googling desperately on 'how to get my ex back', somehow I ended up looking up love spells. There's very little research on love spells and the succession of it is vague. Everytime I go to a site it seems like they're all scammers. I don't mind paying alot of money if it's real, but I don't think it is..? I don't know, I really want to believe in it, but at the same time my logical mind doesn't believe in it, maybe because I never tried it or experienced it before. This wicca..magick.. and whatever else is very new to me. Oh and I'm also a Christian.

I apologize for this very long post, as you can see I have poured my heart out into this. I really am hoping that some of you can help me and maybe refer me to a specialist or something? I have been begging my ex to come back but he keeps telling me "My heart tells me to take you back but my stubborn mind tells me I need this time, my guts is usually right and when I stick to a decision it's hard to change that. I'm afraid this 'feeling' won't go away soon.. I have been trying to melt up for you but I can't.."
Now to think about it, if I really do believe in magic, I would like to believe that my ex was cursed/hex or someone put a breakup spell to our relationship lol. I don't know how you can fall out of love that easily when you're obsessed with somebody.
I know 'if you really love someone, let it go. If it's true love, it will come back to you..' But I don't know why, I can't seem to believe this saying. I have been severely depressed ever since the break up, I lost alot of weight and I have been very unhappy. I even had suicidal thoughts but I would NEVER act upon them.

Please..anyone out there.. can you guys help me? I actually have a new friend who is kind of a psychic and he told me he did a love spell but didn't complete it because he realized his ex was not the one for him. I asked him "what do u think would happen if u completed it?" He replied "Because I believe in it, I definitely think it would've worked.." That gave me hope. I wanted him to help me but it feels weird cause I don't want him to know my personal life like that.

Whoa I wrote too much.. Okay I guess I'm gonna stop right now lol. Please reply back to me and help me out.. I would even pay you guys.. please.. I've hit rock bottom ..
and YES, I DO LOVE HIM, and I DON'T CARE for the 'risks' of him obsessing over me (that's wishful thinking, lol) or the karma thingy.. I have always been a nice person, I never hurt anyone in my life. I just want him to give me a second chance.. I have shown to him that I have IMPROVED SO MUCH as a person, and he saw that too, but he said 'i know you change, but I should too.. but my feelings still haven't.. I want to be single".. Sigh.... But I feel like he thinks I will go back to my old ways.. which is being unmotivated or something ( I was not a bad bf at all). IDK what im saying anymore. I really should stop.

[john85uk]

I'm really sorry but what I'm about to say probably isn't going to be what you want to hear at all (i.e no love spell). I've read your post and really feel for you. Being gay myself I remember what it's like to loose your first love if indeed that is the case and he doesn't genuinely want a few months to focus on his studies as it sounds like he takes them quite seriously and will need to if he's to be a success at his new job.

I personally think based entirely on reading your post (don't forget I don't know you so I don't have the full picture) that maybe you both need some time alone to focus on yourselves, you in particular. But I'm not going to go into the relationship side of things. Being gay can be horrible and very depressing at times but what you've asked for is advice on love spells so that is what I will give you.

First of all DO NOT give anyone any money for a love spell. True witches/wiccans/pagans do not accept money for spells. It is very wrong and an abuse of power.
Secondly you don't sound like you believe in magic in the first place or that you're only willing to believe it if it gets you what you want. That's a little on the empty side. Magic is powered by faith not money.
Thirdly and this is just a little fun fact you can be a Christian and believe in and use magic. You're sure to find information about this on this site.
Fourthly many magicians believe in the "harm none" approach. Think of karma, if you do something and it affects someone else in a negative way then this negativity will come back to you in some way. So for example if he came back to you through magic and not by his own free will how would that affect him. The loss of his career maybe or perhaps you'd both feel that the love you have will never be as powerful as it was before (as he'll be under a spell after all).

If you are interested in witchcraft it can help you in many ways. You don't have to believe everything you read and can form your own opinions and your own rules and even design your own spells. I hope this had helped you but like I say, sorry there's no love spells. Some wiccans even spend a year studying before performing any spells. You sound like a lovely guy and I hope everything works out well for you even if it's not the way you plan it.

Blessed be x

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Dear john,
Thank you for the long and detailed reply.
I am very discouraged with your reply but at the same time relieved because you can relate to me. I know you don't really
know me and my relationship with him, but theres one thing you should know, that our love was genuine and true and rare. It's past lust and money and looks. If I showed you his messages and letters and voicemails to you, I think you will feel very touched by them. I know I was not the perfect bf but for a very long time he said I was the best thing that ever happened to him. It's like that movie Brokeback Mountain and The Notebook. I am serious lol as cheesy as it sounds. It's funny because I was never the romantic type and I was not looking for love too, but just friends and whatnot.

We have fought against all odds to be together. We met on the internet, we were both closeted, long distance, straight acting, he was in a relationship and I was also in an online relationship with someone else.. So many other odds..
But somehow we made it together. We did things that we would never normally do. On our first date we walked through Central park, had my first kiss and we made out for hours, and we held hands walking through the city. Even though it was uncomfortable for the both of us because people would glare, we didn't care because we were Romeo&Juliet in love.

The thing is I don't know exactly why he wants to take a break. Why why why? If there's no other guy in the picture and if our love was so strong, how come he let me go? I keep thinking he was put under a spell or something but I know that's ridiculous thinking..

I am so lost, destroyed, and any negative adjective you can put in there. I feel like he ripped my soul out swallow it and spit it out. I am living half alive.
You are right we both do need time to ourselves because i have some soul searching and growin up to do not to mention both of us are very young. But I want to commit to him for the rest of my life.
He did too, he PROPOSED to me, telling me he would never hurt or leave or cheat on me. Those promises he made used to freak me out but now I actually want them.

Please tell me love spells exist, please tell me they work. I have done some research and some testimonials claim to be true. I don't care for the risks I am ready to face them. My life is already sh1t now it cannot be any worse than this, even if it could I'm already immune to it.. Cause I am emotionally numb right now.
Just look how desperate I am.. I registered for a witch forum to ask for love spells..
I think I have lost my mind I don't know anything anymore. My life is going great except for my love life.

Sigh. Help me please

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Oh and I also forot to mention.. If love spells dont exist then how come even this own website provides us with love spells rituals? Also theres a thread about love spells and some users here had experienced them and said it worked even though the end result is usually making the targeted person becomes obsessive or something..?

[john85uk]

Goddess bless you,

I'm not denying your love for each other for one second nor am I saying that love spells don't exist or work. All I'm saying is it's a persons faith which makes spells work just like when you pray it's your faith which makes your prayers heard by your God. If I went into a church and started praying it wouldn't anywhere near as effective as if I did a spell in the comfort of my own home. There are tons of free love spells on this forum but they won't work because you don't believe in them. You need to be focusing on talking to him and not on spell work and if talking to him either by begging and pleading or by giving him space doesn't work then you need to move on. It's life and it's cruel especially when it's your first love.

Sorry once again for not helping.

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

I'm not going to preach to you... I'm sure you know the warnings about love spells.(If you don't, you're sure to get some here haha)
This is a spell I wrote with an ex in mind. I never performed it, so I can't tell you how effective it is. I decided to move on instead. But I still have the spell, and I'll share it with you. It's up to you what to do. I hope you find love and peace, whatever you choose. xoxo

Meet Again Spell

You will need:
- A pink or red candle and an orange candle
- A magnet
- A length of yarn, rope or thick thread
- Paper and writing utensil

These words’ swift flight
Through space and time I hasten
Let them reach your ears
Let our memories from through the years
Stir again within your heart
Our destinies once intertwined
And through the years I feel
Our threads of fate still are tied
And our journey is not done
Once the word “always”
Rang out between us both
And I decree that on that day
That word became an oath
Let it someday be fulfilled
May we meet again on the path ahead
With open hearts and bright eyes
Time heals all wounds, and so again
Let us see where our future lies

Carve a pink or red candle with three deities: Philotes (friendship), Mnemosyne (memory), and Eros (love). Carve an orange candle with the names of the three fates: Clotho, Lachesis, and Atropos. Light the candles. Write each of your names on a slip of paper. Place the object’s name under the pink/red candle and the caster’s name under the orange. Repeat the chant.
Perform this spell at midnight, for three consecutive days of waxing moon leading up to the full moon. On the third night, put out the candles, and tie the papers face together to a magnet. Hold the magnet between the candles, and wrap them all with thread over and over, even if it becomes large and bulky. Keep it under your bed. Unwrapping the candles and snapping them in half will break the spell.


*NOTE: I designed this room to leave some space for destiny to do its work: ie, if you're not meant to be together romantically, this spell shouldn't force it. For that reason it may be less forceful than you want.

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

After re-reading your post:
I personally suffer from depression, and I have a close gay friend who had a very hard time emotionally until he began seeing a therapist. It can help you through the transition of coming out, the stress or hurt of feeling judged or not as accepted as you'd like, the relationship problems and the depressed feeling. If you can't see a full time therapist, I don't know if you're in college or not but most colleges offer some free counseling resources for those who need it. Since you're a Christian I thought about recommending you talk to a clergy member, as long as it's someone you trust to have an open and accepting attitude towards homosexuality (which I realize many Christian religions teach against).

Good luck, I really hope you start to feel better soon.

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Victoria thank you very much for your helpz
I came here desperately looking for a spell to make my ex come back, but after thinking awhile I think I will do it I feel like he's truly are the one for me and after i give him much more time and space (its only been 2 months and the first month was full of begging and pleading so I feel like I didnt give him any space)
I will try to get him back without the spell and wait for a long while to see if he changes his feelings or not. If hes stubbon then I might try it.
I actually have been going to a therapist, starting this january. You know what's funny? My ex and his mom forced me to go to a therapist because they care and love me, so i actually went and have been going.. What's funny is that now he broke up with me, i came back to square one and yeah therapy helps but im still extremely heartbroken.
I literally hyperventilate alot, i think about him when i sleep, in my dreams, when i wake up i have the worst feeling ever like I lost a big part of me and I am very unmotivated to live.

UKjohn, thanks for trying to understand. Dont worry i wont do the spell any time soon, im
Just at a curious stage right now.

I actually went to a relationship forum and a lady told us that she used a gypsian love magic to get her lover back and it worked but he became obsessive. But she did a reverse spell on him and it worked too. She said gypsian love magic is not harmful at all cause it is all natural and from earth. She doesnt like witches, voodoo, black magick etc. she only believes in gypsian love magic. Have you guys ever heard of this? She is a friend on my fb now and we have been talking for awhile. She told me to go to a bookstore and buy gypsian love magic book lol

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

I think you're doing the smart and mature thing by waiting first. Magic should be a last resort, sometimes non-magic can be the answer too and people tend to overlook it. I'm glad your going to a therapist... it helps your relationship with yourself, and even if you don't get back with the ex then something good came out of it. Feeling heartbroken sucks, I know that feeling. Only time will make you feel better, unfortunately.
As for gypsy magic.. I'm not an expert on it but most magic is "natural" and "earth based". It's pretty common. Most practices in general involve fire, herbs, water...most of the spells you'll find on this site include things like candles, herbs, flowers, natural oils, a few words...some include animal or human ingredients but still, pretty natural. It's probably just her preference more than anything else.

[PleaseAcceptMe]

I'm going to wait it out for a while.. at least until he settles down with his life first. I know he's on a HUGE transition in his life now. He has to move out and live on his own (wasn't the plan, he wanted me to be with him..sigh), graduation, working for a big company, turning 22 soon.. He's still young and has his whole life a head of him. Maybe, for some wild reason, he has just suddenly realized all of this, that everything is going way too fast for him relationship-wise with me, that he needs to take a break on any relationships and focus on himself.
He has told me repeatedly that he needs time, time time time time time, alone for himself. He has been in relationships for 5 years and all he knows in his life is to take care of other people but not himself. So I kind of know how he feels, but it's hard because I've never been on his shoes before.

But even if that's the case, why can't he guarantee me that he will be back to me?
He did tell me that his feelings changed, but the love that he had for me was definitely genuine and true. He even had an epiphany of me living forever with him and be happy together. So I'm really confused.

He keeps telling me, "I'm not a fortune teller, I don't know what will happen in the future that's why I'm not guaranteeing everything. There's always a possibility that we can work it out and be back together, but that might not happen too. All I know is I need this time alone and the feeling that I have I'm afraid won't be gone anytime soon. I still love you so much don't get me wrong but I want to be single.."

I'm just afraid that his feelings of wanting alone will prolong and he will eventually find another guy or something.. I don't know.. It will definitely crush me to see him with another guy. That's why I am thinking of love spell so that he would at least think about me more and be back to me.

I know for sure once he just gives me ONE CHANCE, I can definitely show him I'm a much better man now (not that I was a bad bf in the first place). I will make him so much happier.. I just need that ONE chance.....sigh..

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Oh and by the way victoria, do u know how effective ur spell is? And how did u come up with it? Ugh i always hear stories about people wanting to do love spell and are already prepared for it but then bailed out lol. I wish they would complete it and tell us the results.. So it wont be a mystery everytime

[PleaseAcceptMe]

and by the way, we had a really really huge fight a few nights ago, my feelings were really hurt. He seemed to be extremely cold and mean. I haven't even done any spell yet. Idk what to do, I wish there is a spell to make you be able to forget your ex or to move on..

[Victoria Mnemosyne]

Sorry I've been gone for awhile... If you're still looking for answers here goes:
I came up with that spell as a result of breaking up with someone I thought was my soulmate. The reason I decided not to go through with it is because I chose instead to do a spell to soften the pain of being apart so I could better cope with my life. Which is ultimately what i did. As you're finding out now, it seems, a spell to help yourself move on can be a better option. (In my opinion, it has a better chance of being effective too, because you're only changing your own thoughts and feelings and not trying to control the future or someone else's love, in which case you contend with countless variables like that person's feelings, whether they move or get a new job, who else they meet etc). I suggest you put up a post requesting a "move on" spell for yourself. You'll probably be offered a lot more answers- and a lot more personal success stories from people who have tried one.

[PleaseAcceptMe]

Sorry I've been gone for awhile... If you're still looking for answers here goes:
I came up with that spell as a result of breaking up with someone I thought was my soulmate. The reason I decided not to go through with it is because I chose instead to do a spell to soften the pain of being apart so I could better cope with my life. Which is ultimately what i did. As you're finding out now, it seems, a spell to help yourself move on can be a better option. (In my opinion, it has a better chance of being effective too, because you're only changing your own thoughts and feelings and not trying to control the future or someone else's love, in which case you contend with countless variables like that person's feelings, whether they move or get a new job, who else they meet etc). I suggest you put up a post requesting a "move on" spell for yourself. You'll probably be offered a lot more answers- and a lot more personal success stories from people who have tried one.

THanks for the reply again.
I have been EXTREMELY bipolar towards him. Sometimes I love him, sometimes I obsess over him, sometimes I hate him, sometimes I am mutual, sometimes I miss him so much, sometimes I don't care for him.
I feel like my feelings are being controlled by him. I am so mentally exhausted.. I am only 20 and have alot of going on for me but this one relationship/break up is ruining my life.

I am not sure if I want to do a love spell to bring him back or a spell to make me get over him.
Victoria, the spell that you made, you made it by yourself or you got it from a book or something?
Either way, how effective do you think it will be if I do it, do you have any idea?

[Blackcat101]

I started a honey jar spell just over a week ago. Just look them up there are plenty available . They work by warming someones feelings towards you. I didn't have a hair available so I had to use a photo instead. Also I used maple syrup instead of honey because I read it was more appropriate for the persons ethnicity. They are supposed to work slowly over time which might be good for you as it would give you both some space to sort out your feelings. I think mine has started to work as the person got in touch yesterday. So it's worth a try. Good luck