Forget mistakes of the past. Learn the lessons and grow in wisdom. I agree with the take SpiritTalker expressed regarding your friend. And who's to say with or without having done spell work you still
would have met the same
man, had the same
relationship, which would have ended the same
way? My suspicion is, as is often the case with many love spell casters, you had red flags in front of you that you just didn't want to see, both within the guy, and within yourself. That's OK. If nothing else, magic is good for bringing to light that which was hidden so that, often...
The question isn't did we cast the spell perfectly. The question is, what did we learn about ourselves, and the world around us, from casting it?
At this point in life, I suggest you consider just saying, "Well, now I know," and move on. I think that guilt-based concepts like "ashamed," "upset/offended the elements," "atone," "make amends," etc. play a huge part in many religions such as Christianity, especially Catholicism. That's their jargon, their parlance. However, I found it futile to follow such an age-old, condemnatory blueprint, which I think has been played out on this planet for far too long. I would say that the Goddess Path is much more expansive than that, and I hope you stay with it long enough to see that aspect of it, its expansiveness, but more importantly, your own.
Focus on the beauty of the present. Hey, you have some lovely kids now, some little people, isn't that great!
Focus on making them the best people they could be. Educate them to be smart, to respect themselves so that they respond appropriately to the red flags that will inevitably present themselves (it's unavoidable on this planet!). Help them sidestep the riff raff so that they go on to find healthy relationships with people who truly love them. And they too may have pronounced psychic abilities like you, so be the best role model you can be on how to live a balanced life. Start by loving and forgiving yourself. They will learn to do that to themselves, and to others, because...
Isn't self-love the real spell we need to cast, and doesn't learning to do so, properly, seem to elude us at times, and be a lifelong process?
Meanwhile, enjoy and cultivate your psychic abilities. I hope this message board helps with that. Read through the forums, ask questions, make some friends. You started this life as a mystical, magical child, and she's still walking and talking within you. She is still casting her magic best she knows how, making mistakes along the way (an important part of growth). Let her continue to learn and grow, while she has time in this Earth Walk. She's wiser now, has been through rough times, but her wounds only serve to make her all the more compassionate toward others, and all the more beautiful.
SpiritTalker wrote: We atone for our mistakes by learning from them and not repeating them. We don't tell the Universal Energies we're sorry. We say thanks for the lesson and do better.