Keepers of secrets support group
Posted: Sat Mar 28, 2020 11:54 am
Sometimes I wonder about those that decided to join the armed forces. Probably a dream of most men at least for certain periods of time. You get action, you get respect... you see world and get money too. Adrenaline rush addiction and so on.
Well unless you lose body parts in grenade explosion. Or lose romantic imagination when you actually kill someone and feel it to be... not quite human.
I can imagine such that in the midst of conversation they just sadly turn gaze away, without saying nothing more to normal folk. Cutting conversations and leaving groups.
Now that was just an example. I always wished to know secrets and so it came to my abstract wishes rendered true.
I'll start my therapy post here.
Knowing secrets is great... but they are complicated to explain. Complex contexts. You don't bother explaining such. You just remain silent, say nothing to people in certain social situations for you know well chances are the response would be unpleasant. Like most of the time.
So you isolate and ignore people. You pity the naive attitude. You envy the naive attitude of others.
Then you see people again and have a good time and ask yourself if things could be good once again.
Then you talk and talk and have some good time. Then the context requires sharing secrets otherwise all would have been turned into an empty babble. Now you can't share secrets because of complex contexts.
Now you look sadly into eyes of new friends. Now you abandon them yet again.
Well unless you lose body parts in grenade explosion. Or lose romantic imagination when you actually kill someone and feel it to be... not quite human.
I can imagine such that in the midst of conversation they just sadly turn gaze away, without saying nothing more to normal folk. Cutting conversations and leaving groups.
Now that was just an example. I always wished to know secrets and so it came to my abstract wishes rendered true.
I'll start my therapy post here.
Knowing secrets is great... but they are complicated to explain. Complex contexts. You don't bother explaining such. You just remain silent, say nothing to people in certain social situations for you know well chances are the response would be unpleasant. Like most of the time.
So you isolate and ignore people. You pity the naive attitude. You envy the naive attitude of others.
Then you see people again and have a good time and ask yourself if things could be good once again.
Then you talk and talk and have some good time. Then the context requires sharing secrets otherwise all would have been turned into an empty babble. Now you can't share secrets because of complex contexts.
Now you look sadly into eyes of new friends. Now you abandon them yet again.