Living Wicca - Year 2. Not so easy.
Posted: Thu Dec 29, 2016 9:52 am
Going into the new year I try to avoid making resolutions. I want to assess and acknowledge the things I would like to change,
but putting myself on a timeline for things like that is pretty inane.
What I learned this year is that 35 years of doing the same holidays, on the same schedules, has made it REALLY difficult for me
to shift gears and focus on the Sabbats instead of the christian and secular holidays I'm used to.
Most of my famlies traditions are tied to Christian holidays, and US military secular observances.
I've felt real guilt and a little bit of shame that I totally forgot 3 Sabbats this year and then on the ones I remembered,
we didn't do anything. I didn't do ritual, I didn't do community, I didn't even do a little remeberence at my shrine for the ancestors
and I utterly blew it in terms of settings places of honor for any celebration we did have.
I believe.
I want to do better at living the reality I want.
But I also know my family is very integrated into the christian traditions, even though they only recognize them as American cultural traditions.
I've only done ritual 3 times this year and those were in rather extreme situations where I just didn't know what else to do,
then I felt guilty because it seemed like I was just following the same Judeo-Christian pattern of praying when I needed something
like a begger at the door in the rain. And I hate feeling like that.
It is frustrating.
So for you younger people and those of you who are taking your spiritual lives into your own hands for the first time, Take Heed.
I'm struggling with this and I have control over my life. So if you are struggling too, know you aren't the only one.
What about you?
but putting myself on a timeline for things like that is pretty inane.
What I learned this year is that 35 years of doing the same holidays, on the same schedules, has made it REALLY difficult for me
to shift gears and focus on the Sabbats instead of the christian and secular holidays I'm used to.
Most of my famlies traditions are tied to Christian holidays, and US military secular observances.
I've felt real guilt and a little bit of shame that I totally forgot 3 Sabbats this year and then on the ones I remembered,
we didn't do anything. I didn't do ritual, I didn't do community, I didn't even do a little remeberence at my shrine for the ancestors
and I utterly blew it in terms of settings places of honor for any celebration we did have.
I believe.
I want to do better at living the reality I want.
But I also know my family is very integrated into the christian traditions, even though they only recognize them as American cultural traditions.
I've only done ritual 3 times this year and those were in rather extreme situations where I just didn't know what else to do,
then I felt guilty because it seemed like I was just following the same Judeo-Christian pattern of praying when I needed something
like a begger at the door in the rain. And I hate feeling like that.
It is frustrating.
So for you younger people and those of you who are taking your spiritual lives into your own hands for the first time, Take Heed.
I'm struggling with this and I have control over my life. So if you are struggling too, know you aren't the only one.
What about you?