Thank you for explaining. That makes a lot of sense of course! I only know basic Rune Meanings and what is delivered, but have never went so far to construct bind runes. What I don't understand is how some of them are reverse. A bind rune for a safe pregnancy that I liked for example was made up of 2 Berkana Facing each other so that one was reversed. I don't know if it was done correctly however. Here is the link:
http://woodfireink.tumblr.com/post/1182 ... -pregnancy. I intend to use the bindrunes for myself. I like Nordic Runes as well as Anglo Saxon Runes.
My Current Pregnancy
I am currently 7 weeks pregnant with complications. I had a miscarriage prior to this one at 4 weeks. My doctor said with such an early MC we can just continue to ttc and the body will get pregnant when it is ready. My body was ready only a few days after the bleeding from the miscarriage stopped and I conceived. I always know when I conceive because my body responds with the weirdest cramps and pressure on my cervix, strong nausea, fatigue and dizziness. It was the same with my son.
I also know when Implantation happened because that night was basically sleepless due to pain and cramps that made my legs tingle. So knowing these two and having charted all changes I am pretty sure I am about 6+6 today, 7 weeks tomorrow.
Last week I bled bright red blood. It was literally dripping to the floor. I was scared it would be another miscarriage, but the bleed did not continue, nor didncramping start. The days after I had brown spotting which is the body's way of cleaning out old blood. My doctor did a transvaginal Ultrasound and there was a tiny embryo, but no heartbeat. She said it was a bit early...around 6 weeks is usually when the heart starts beating. She said to wait to weeks to see if the embryo will continue to grow and the heart will start beating. She also prescribed progesterone tablets in case of low progesterone (which can lead to a miscarriage).
However, she was not very positive. She said it could be that the embryo already died and that I got pregnant much too soon (not enough uterine lining after a short time). That night (full moon) I laid on my back with my left hand over my uterus and tried to send all the possible positive energy in the world to my baby. I have been keeping black tourmaline around due to it's resonance absorption that leads to an increase in energy that axtivates cells. Traditionally it is also said to help with negative energy and entities. I came across this on a paranormal forum when seeking advice regarding spooky events at my home.
The following night was horrible and I woke up with commotion in my uterus..it was as if all my reproductive organs were waking overtime or like having little people in my stomach. Again I also suffered cramps, combined with pregnancy symptoms. The following days were also intense. Just a constant pain in my uterus and sides as well as increased pregnancy symptoms. I am hoping this means my body is working on the pregnancy.
Past Pregnancy and Health Issues
There is some background to me that I think is important. I have suffered from many chronic health issues in the past which I discovered between 2009 and 2010. When I got pregnant with my son 2010 Doctors did not have much hope. They said I am too sick for a healthy pregnancy. In my mind I just did not want to accept it and actually ended up having a healthy pregnancy. After pregnancy my mission was to heal. So my son could have a healthy mother that can be there all his life and also to one day have more children. I would love to have lots of children if I could....4, 5...who knows. I have worked with energy, nutrition and herbal supplements these past year to restore my health. I rid myself of most health issues naturally, even a cancer and Hashimoto's.....I went from a weak immune system to a very strong immune system (all documented with blood testing as well) but the natural healing process is sometimes slow and I still have a pituitary tumor at my brain... that shrank, and my prolactin levels have been in the normal range, yet the leftovers of it can still cause problems in a pregnancy.
I am testing to see if my body can do it already. I feel a healthy pregnancy would further correct issues much better than I could with all the nutrition and supplements in the world. With pregnancy hormones kicking in my chronic Candida issue actually improved. I have a fungus on my face and scalp that I needed to control with topical antifungals. This would be my first pregnancy off medication. I am still breastfeeding my 4 year old and that is what keeps the tumor in check and keeps it from releasing excess prolactin. My goal is a medication free pregnancy all throughout and a natural birth this time around. I think letting my body do what it needs to is best to find balance.
A Mysterious Red Light I See Clairvoyantly
Last but not least I do have paranormal happenings of some sort. I do seem to have good spirit guides around that have communicated to me through a lot of ways what to do and what to study. I do have dreams that gave me clues towards healing too. Since 2013 I have been seeing a red light or red glow. It started appearing in images back then but also floated in my bedroom once. I did not think of it any further but 2014 when re-connecting with someone I know from the far past a lot of spooky things happened. Which I why I looked for advice in a paranormal forum. I kept seeing the red light, then very small like a sphere by my bedroom window in the early morning hours. I would always wake before sunrise (so def. no sun around) The red sphere was distant at first, but one night moved closer and whenever waking I would see it right by my bedside. I made sure I was awake, pulled my son closer, wrote something on paper, even woke my husband. I never felt threatened by it, but the red color puzzles me. It then started growing in size very slowly.
Fast forward to the night I conceived miscarriage baby...suddenly I did not see it around anymore. The night I miscarried and woke from cramping hours after the first bleed I saw the red light floating away from me to the other side of the room. The nights after it was in the usual spot again. That was when it doomed to me that it may be a soul or spirit of some sort. My friend who has had experiences like this thinks it might be a demon, but I just don't feel this sort of energy from it. Maybe there is another reason for the red color. 2009 I lost a pregnancy due to tragic circumstances and my health issues. Planned Parenthood also told me there was no heartbeat and that we need to terminate the pregnancy since it won't expel naturally. Looking back I think I should have waited longer...knowing how often a scan is just dated wrong and a heartbeat can be found days later. But I had no knowledge of such things then. I always felt horrible about the first loss, maybe also because it was a dark time in my life where I separated from a horrible man left with health issues and financial ruin.
Sometimes I wonder if the red light could be the baby I lost then. But I really don't know. There could be another reason for it staying near me. Going through another miscarriage brought up all the pain from the first miscarriage too. And when I saw the red light again a following night I said it can be my baby if it wants to and I will be the best mother possible. So soon after when I conceived I woke up to the red light above me, moving towards me while I was laying in the bed. Then again I stopped seeing the red light. Instead in place of the red light, I see a shadow. I have seen shadows before. One is my guide and has months ago "told" me that "everything will be okay" in a dream (I never hear voices communication happens with the mind). On the night that I believe to have been implantation I had horrible pains. I was scared I would miscarry. That night I saw a blastocyst where the red light used to be. I actually had to google what I had seen because I did not know how a blastocyst looks. But it means the actual implantation was successful. No red light since and not much dreaming. Not having seen the red light makes me hope baby is still alive and I will see a heartbeat soon.
Factors I'd Like the Bindrune(s) to Address
Sorry my story was very long but I was thinking it would matter for the nature of the bindrunes. So first of all I need something that helps my body heal the small problems that are left, find balance hormonally and shut out effects of the tumor so I can produce adequate amounts of progesterone. I need to maintain a healthy digestion and I hope former IBS pains will not act up.
I am normally a very grounded and emotionally balanced person, not scared of many things in life...but because of the miscarriage I do now have fear that something will go wrong in a way. I think a bit of emotional healing and confidence in my body's abilities is needed.
I believe this baby might be having a hard time but is definitely a fighter and needs strength and vitality to make it past the critical time of the first trimester.
Last but not least I worry a bit about the red color of this "soul" or "spirit"...maybe there is some hidden frustration? I feel that maybe this needs to be calmed and turned into happiness and just positivity. I am already working on it energy wise based on the hermetic principles but I think trying other things can't hurt.
I think that is about it
Quite complex, I apologize.