I'm back! I had a rough week but one good thing happened: I 'finished' my pantheon!
Rant about Gods!
For the last two years, yes indeed, I have been searching for a complete, fully right pantheon. I mean I knew I was home with the Germanic gods but there wasn't enuogh about them to go on. Not the Nordic Pantheon, that was slightly off. So I looked at the norse vanir, and then the Germanic, continental Gods. They weren't much but gave me the feeling I was on the right path. So I kept comparing all the I.E. Pantheons to find similarities.
Here's the thing. My feelings were and are very clear about the Goddess. She is nature and the earth, she is the sun, she is a bright flame. Sadly, the version of a male sun is very, very wide spread. Even in the Norse where the actual sun was female, Baldur was the official sun god. Who made that so? I do blame male scholars, but also women who said okay well the moon is better anyway so let's take it as our goddess. (Or however that came to be, I haven't studied it.)
In the past when Tiwaz-Irmin was the main god, he symbolized the sun, too. But I knew that couldn't be all there is to it. The sun is of female grammar, and thus was a women in children's stories I heard. When the sun is shining people here, until this day, say that 'she is smiling'. Tiwaz wife Frija was of the sun, too, bright, wears golden jewelry and cried golden and amber tears, and had blond hair. Then came my best clue ever, i know i bring it up in every post, but it's true. The Balts. Their goddess Saule 'sun' is cognate with all those other goddesses of the sun (Sol, Sunna, Sulis), and her Discription read like Frija/Freya. Other gods who have been lost in the Germanic culture turned up very clearly there, felt very genuine. Now I don't know exactly who came first, German or Balts, and I also dont know what had survived from the people living there before the Indoeuropeans came, but I know one thing: they didn't conquer, they didn't worship male deities more than females. That's what many historians want us to believe, and they say the I.E. brought a sky god when the people before have only whorshipped the earth as a goddess.
It's not true. Did you know that the oldest found from the Baltic area was from the Mesolithic area, no I.e. People anywhere, and it was a bone with a symbol for the sun curved on it? The sun has always been the giver of light and day - important even in the Stone Age, even without agriculture around.
Also, all tribes had their shamans and honestly I think many have heard about the same gods that way on different parts of the earth at the same time. It's not hard to miss when it's only nature on the planet, and nothing else. The Gods are light and dark, day and night, up and below and in the middle, the are nature but also high vibrating masters of the world.
Thus I have recreated the what I think is the most original and profound pantheon of gods. I wanted to know it, that's it. The other I.e. Pantheons like Greek etc have their own worth, no doubt! But I looked at what i thuoght was the origin. Since I don't have proof for it other than my guts I guess I have to name this pantheon something like Postindoeuropean or Neo-Indoeuropean?
I will outline the gods in an actual blog article (there needs to be some action, too) and post the link here.
With it comes the feeling of 'I finally found the order into which they belong that have been with me all this time', a feeling I can't describe very good but it is very good!