Your whole world became a mess in a blink of an eye, everything was/is falling apart and you weren't able to put yourself together since then.
Context of your situation:
-8 of Wands
-King of Wands
There are/were a unfair power imbalance in this situation, someone forced you to leave many things behind, in an abusive and maybe deceitful way.
-Queen of Cups
-7 of Pentacles
It might be hard for you to be emotionally strong now, but it's the only healthy way to be free of this, it may be wise to look for counseling.
I hate to say that this situation might linger for more time, and that you'll need to be patient and perseverant.
-5 of Cups
-9 of Cups
Don't get lost by thinking that you lost everything you had, remember that you still have a life, if you want to get back what you lost, you need to understand that this is not the end, and that you will be able to get it back after you put yourself together. Focus more on what's still with you now than on what's not.