Lunareina wrote:I know it sounds so silly
Not at all.
I use to strike conversation with new people quite easily. This lead me to idea that there is always somebody new out there. ... So when my old friends started whining about their lives, I got tired of their gloominess and ceased to see them. This way I lost many friends.
... The older I get there is no will for gradual building of friendships.
Sometimes I see somebody, we drink beer, exchange some stories and that's it.
There are occult groups available to join too, but I don't like them because every group has a leader and leader usually prefers to keep his position at the expense of truth and progress.
Also, if you want to protect your love, groups aren't good either. There is always somebody either envious of your happiness, or secretly wishing for other's love affairs to cease so they could date them... yeah my outlook on life is quite dark.