HopefulChild wrote:
I have an uncanny sense of when people aren't being honest, but I rarely call it out because I can usually tell when the dishonesty is based in issues of self worth and social structure that the person might be concerned about. No reason to hammer on people when they already feel incomplete or unsteady. I am rarely if ever cowed by other people or their personalities/auras. I am very secure about who I am and very grounded. I've also been told that I have the ability to lift people up. Just by being around, people become happier and more secure. I don't do anything. I think it's just positive influence. There are some people who drain me. Just listening to them for 10 minutes makes me feel like I've spent hours toiling in hard labor or that I just survived some natural disaster like a tornado or hurricane. Not the triumphant feeling of YAY I survived I need food and sex, but the "I want to sleep for a year" feeling.
Yes, pretty similar. not sure if you agree, but a part of us is also extremely aware and keenly observing - which helps as a sort of double confirmation in terms of empathic signalling or clairsentience. I am so glad that you have the groundedness and security when dealing with people!
as my spiritual journey has been about being free of entrapment and enslavement of larger society, i have been becoming more vocal and do start holding people accountable for their feelings, thoughts and speech. it has caused some large discoveries for them, like a blast of truth, but i would have never done this before. pretty shy and careful in watching my tongue but i think once getting my own true authentic Power, this has been a shift in my daily life. when previously i was able to discern dishonesty in thoughts and speech and allow them to exist in my immediate space, today i operate on Truth and can no longer tolerate them. this is largely opening of the throat chakra, as it only wields and spreads Truth. dishonesty and lies become very very obvious, and it will be called out.
I realise that i am not doing the people any service, letting them be enchained (and sometimes enchanted) to their hurt, trauma and insecurities, whether self inflicted or not. in the workplace, surprisingly, it has gained me a little bit of respect as people soon after learn not to "mess with me" as the planes have been levelled in some ways by me being able to call out their bullshit to their face. it does keep people on their toes, but also amazingly enough, trains them to be extremely present and in the moment, when they are with me! they are quiet, attentive, and feel refreshed after meetings, because they are focused and not acting out of their hurts, ego etc. full manifestation of power has been when i was able to retire in July this year, and carry on my spiritual work in my daily life.
I still get drained by certain individuals. utterly exhausted like i just took a 4hr long exam or something. but have learnt ways of shielding to protect my energy, or in dire situations, drawing energy from them then releasing/earthing it, as means of deactivating them. the reason why i dont keep it is that it is toxic energy and serves me no purpose. as understood now, when one is able to access his or her own authentic power, you do not need to rely on other external sources. my previous memory of those draining individuals, is that, i just want to shower, crawl into bed, be swathed in my blankets and zonk out. not speak, think and just rest for days. i am sure a large part of it is my deep Taurean nature, but just need to rest after particular draining events/conversations/interactions.