Crazy Cat Lady wrote:I find sometimes I am drawn to doing a thing just before I need it. This could be the case for you, intuition prompting an action you will need shortly. What do you think would have happened if you had *not* just done a protection spell? Would you have been in danger? Would you have been as aware of danger as quickly if protection was not already on your mind?
It would be so much easier to explain openly the circumstances of the event itself, and what exactly led up to it to get a clearer answer, but it involves the demonic- however this was not something willfully summoned
, the forum rules here place all demonic experiences under taboo, and myself being unsure of exactly what the law exactly is on this, feel very uncomfortable going into detail. I've not been on this forum long, and do not wish to be banned over such trivial thing as mentioning the D word. Unfortunately this makes it so so so much more difficult to be able to speak of my beliefs in these things, that those big old D's indeed exist. Unfortunately I have found many many people are very much unaware that they exist. And if that was not enough many many more are unaware exactly to what extent that they do.
This makes it so much more difficult to describe personal experiences with these things, which may not even be the fault of the individual or even of their own willful accord.
What I experienced was not of dark magic. I was not summoning anything, nor practicing a dark spell.
Despite this both I and my beliefs are silenced.
Many forums have rules about these types of discussions. Those that do allow such discussion, have a member base full of those that have not had these same experiences, and therefore when a topic posted asking people's thoughts on the D's are posted, the response is usually along the lines of blame the humans because I don't believe this, as I've not experienced this. So you get responses of: Demons don't exist. It is in the mind, what you put forth you get back, or people attract negative experiences to themselves. Or negative or low vibration people- attracts negative or low level experiences....
????? Why am I being accused of being a low vibe negative person because I mention something someone else simply just so does not happen to understand???
You see it really is a catch 22.
It saddens me, that negative entities have came to me all my life, and I've never invoked, evoked, or summoned them in any way at all. And I struggle with this... weekly. And I deal with every single experience as it comes.
I am not even doing anything wrong. I've had experiences with these beings where I've had to protect myself, protect others, whom too have seen them, and have had to help a friend of mine through a literal possession as well as others.
And if I talk about it? I am damned as negative.
Despite the fact I've never asked for this. When I asked God for a calling this was not what I had in mind. Not by a long shot.
But this is what none the less I am forced to deal with.
What I do, is nothing new in a spiritual sense. It is exactly the same thing as exorcism. Technically It is exorcism, and blessings, and protective means.
The catholics have done this.
The difference is, I am pagan and a monotheistic worshiper of God, not Catholic.
I've found many do not take this subject seriously enough, and all those whom do imply those either possessed or those whom see these things to exist as Satan worshipers whom are negative people who practice dark magic.
Would a spiritual person- the person whom told me I attract these negative experiences to myself was a Buddhist... would a Buddhist say these things to a priest?
As to your question about perhaps I was drawn to do this. Let me explain the whole of the situation or try to as shortly as possible with no usage of the taboo D word: I was drawn to read the tarot after I had performed a witch bottle spell. On my personal witch bottle I drew by intuition an x. I then after was drawn to use the tarot, and for a while had been wanting to practice using the pendulum along with tarot, so I figured, read the cards why not?
When I read the cards the imagery with the card spread was uncanny- they are gypsy fortune witch cards- a broken glass image- a railroad image, the scythe, and right above the female center representation of the person read for- in this case myself- was the rapiers card- there two swords crossed to form an X.
It looked like perhaps an accident to me, but I had the feeling with the X that I had marked myself somehow, as if I had cursed myself.
I asked the pendulum will there be an accident? Yes. Anybody killed? No. Others? No. Myself? Yes. Will I be hurt? Yes.
Eventually I finished asking. Wheels in my head, I started stewing about it, wondered if this was even the truth, wondered if I would stub my toe, wondered if it was simple lies. I stayed indoors. Wanted to go out of doors for a smoke for air, but became afraid to. Finally I asked my pendulum one more question I asked "Has this accident now passed"? I received the answer yes.
I thought to myself- forget it, I will not live in fear. I went out doors for my smoke.
Sat on the front porch close to the street as it was raining a little by this time it was morning and light out of doors.
Then a neighbor seemingly under some sort of possession- do not ask me to explain how I knew this- started coming towards me acting very very strangely, said nothing. I thought at first perhaps he had wanted a cigarette and expected him to ask as he got closer, I noticed his eyes. He never said a word or asked a thing, but kept walking quite fast towards me, a neighbor but a total and complete stranger, approaching me very quickly, not saying a word.
He got half way across the street and I finally felt my boundaries were crossed as I noted he was acting very very strangely by approaching someone he did not know, had never before spoken with, a female and approaching her quickly without saying a thing.
I felt my boundaries then were being crossed why? Because you do not approach a stranger in that manner. If you want to ask a question you simply ask, if you want a cigarette all you have to do is ask. This is not a scenario with the individual's behavior of wanting to ask for a smoke. This is not proper behavioral way to approach a stranger, male or female, ever. And my warning bells went off and I outright yelled at the guy. And I looked at him. Dead in the eye, and I spoke up for myself. His eyes changed then a look of shock overwhelmed his face, he looked unaware of what had overcome him, and I noticed a physical change as well. Whatever had him in its grip was no longer there. And what did he do? He lurked! The man continued to Lurk! He backed off a bit, went to step back, then tried again to step forward at another angle as if trying to continue to approach me. Then finally another neighbor having been on his roof hammering looked from what he was doing when he had heard me yell at this guy. He didn't say anything, just looked over at the guy a while, while the guy was in the process of lurking strangely... the neighbor hammering after watching this man's behavior a few seconds went back to his hammering but this time very loudly, and looked back at the guy once a moment, then continued hammering louder.
It was at this point this man crossed back over the road to his car parked on the other side of the street at his building 3 yards before where I was at my house. Meaning his car was not parked right across from where I was, he had to deliberately have walked from where he had been parked, up to my house. He got into his car, backed up into his driveway, still sat there and watched me, then finally left.
That is the circumstances in their entirety.
I cast the spell, read the cards with pendulum, and when I finally went out of doors after having been lied to by the pendulum, was confronted with a human being under possession.
And I am wondering what that is about.
At first I had thought I attracted a circumstance where I needed protection.
But a few weeks ago I remembered I asked a group of Christians at a spiritual forum before this event how a demon could possibly get to a person from simply reading the tarot. They gave me an answer I felt did not answer.
Now I am left wondering if this experience itself was my answer. And who else but God answered it?
But in the end... does this question being answered make me feel any better at all?
In the end I still struggle with experiences with these entities.
And all I can muster to wonder is WHY???
I wonder what you all will be thinking after you all read this? Perhaps there will be some "She's crazy...." Or "I don't know what to think"... Or the ever present "I don't believe her...." or perhaps "Yep well she has gone and got herself banned she said the taboo D word...." Honestly? I am very very tired of experiences with these types of entities happening to me. They happen and I don't know why. They happen whether I summon anything or not. And for the record? I never have. These entities just come to me. And I'm left with nothing else to do but deal with it the best I can.
And I keep asking God over and over and over...... What is the point of this?
Why do these demons keep coming to me? Why must I deal with this?
Oh and one of my more recent questions I ask God "Why The Hell Wont You Help Me"?
His response? No answer.
So that was the situation itself in its entirety. There have been many others...
It is getting very old.
And I am growing very tired....