Weird dream... Can someone help me with it?
Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2012 10:59 pm
So... Last week when it was Full Moon, I asked for my Matron Goddess Selene to come down in my dreams... It was something I did because I just felt like calling for her. And in that night she came in my dream but only for a little while, then the God I think he might be my Patron God, took her place and she left knowingly (actually I am kind of sure he is after this dream)... The first dream was like a day between a daughter and her father. He was really kind to me and we played together as I was being a child, we spoke a lot and he told me many things in that dream...
But two days ago, I had another dream with him. I knew he was going to come into my dreams even before that (he didn't told me he'll come). The dream started with the place where I was born, but it was a strange landscape and dark (my dreams are always dark with small amount of light in them - only the necessary to see around me), more apocalyptic with people dressed all in black, they were walking without any force in them, like they were missing life. The entire town was surrounded by huge and empty concrete pools, which were spread all over town. In each of those pools there were death bodies, scattered in it (every pool had from one to three bodies in it)... My boyfriend, soon to be my husband was all the time with me. We walked through town without talking and just looking around not believing what it was happening... and how my hometown looked. At some point we got to a huge stone bridge and there were lots of people walking with their heads bent, we were looking at them but they weren't looking at us and I had the feeling that it was raining even if it wasn't. The bridge was over one of those pools and when I looked over its edge I saw one of those death bodies in it and in the time I was looking at it, it came to life and started to walk. Not being scared, but more indifferent too what was happening, me and my boyfriend continued to walk until we got to another pool, after we passed some big stairs. There were three bodies, one of them belonging to a girl with black hair. There were people gathered around the pool like they were waiting for something to happen and in the next moment some of them jumped into the pool and went next to that girl. Me and my boyfriend did the same thing as them and we waited to see what was happening when the girl came to life. I can't really explain how she was, she didn't look alive even if her face was human. She wasn't pale either, but somehow I knew she was nothing but an evil entity that took over that body. The girl got attached to my boyfriend after that and she became somehow his guardian, or that's what she told me. After that she kept making a hard time for me. AFter a while as we all walked together we got to another bridge, this time smaller than the first one. On that bridge the girl started to bully me and my boyfriend did nothing against that. She said something to me, to prove who I am and I hesitated to do so, saying I will not fall into her trap, but after that she continued bugging me about it and I said okay, I will do it only to get rid of her big and annoying mouth. At that point I marked a circle at my feet and I stood in the middle of it. I don't know what it was suppose to be, but it didn't feel right. When she saw I hesitated to continue the ritual, she said that I have to show her my tail if I want everything to be good and she was making fun of me because of some power and other things (?)... To complete the ritual I needed horse blood and the next second a dark brown, almost black horse appeared next to me like he was smiling and the horse showed me its teeth. When I looked at them I saw blood coming through them and the horse bent his head so I could take its blood. He was willingly giving me his blood. After I took it, I draw a pentacle in front of my right leg with the horse blood, I said an incantation I don't remember, but it sounded dark and scary and then the sky started to become red and stormy clouds came toward us.One particular cloud looked like it was pointing towards me. The sky started to brake very oddly and grey and black clouds started to appear on it, but even if in the air I could feel a storm approaching us, it was really quit around us. The girl was waiting impatient when my Patron God appeared behind us and he took me into his arm, making the circle disappear. He was looking like a beast, with horns and with a tail... He was very dark and very tall, like a giant and at first I was scared of him, but he told me its no need to feel like this because he will never hurt me. After that he told the "zombie girl" that I don't have a tail and that as his child I do not need a one, because I am not an ordinary child of his... and that if she will ever approach me again, he will kill her.... That moment felt very real and when I woke up I was still feeling Ahriman's cold presence next to me in bed...
There were more things into it, but I don't remember everything.... I forgot to write it down after I waked up and there were other things that my God told me, but I prefer not to tell them. The thing is that I would need an interpretation, because is kind of driving me crazy this dream. I am not to good at interpreting dreams. And the part with the "tail" it was really strange and weird. It was the only thing beside the horse that I was actually seeing it like I was looking through some macro lenses, that was very evident to me in the dream. And the pools, too... Since I started to accept him as my God, I have these weird dreams with him, or about him. And he always addresses me as his child... I feel protected and safe, but I know that the God who chose me is from a dark side... I shouldn't be scared or anything, but this dream and the thing with the tail made me a little bit worried... And I want to say that this is not the entire dream. I don't remember all the dream and the exact facts. Another thing I want to say, is that this God, Ahriman (as he told me to call him) always seems to want to replace Selene and even if I call for her, she comes but soon after Ahriman comes too and she is leaving without a word. He is very dominant or so it seems
Sorry for writing so much... I just needed to explain everything if there is someone who is willing to help me interpret it. I would be much grateful to that person or to those who will answer me. Thank you!
Amaryss
But two days ago, I had another dream with him. I knew he was going to come into my dreams even before that (he didn't told me he'll come). The dream started with the place where I was born, but it was a strange landscape and dark (my dreams are always dark with small amount of light in them - only the necessary to see around me), more apocalyptic with people dressed all in black, they were walking without any force in them, like they were missing life. The entire town was surrounded by huge and empty concrete pools, which were spread all over town. In each of those pools there were death bodies, scattered in it (every pool had from one to three bodies in it)... My boyfriend, soon to be my husband was all the time with me. We walked through town without talking and just looking around not believing what it was happening... and how my hometown looked. At some point we got to a huge stone bridge and there were lots of people walking with their heads bent, we were looking at them but they weren't looking at us and I had the feeling that it was raining even if it wasn't. The bridge was over one of those pools and when I looked over its edge I saw one of those death bodies in it and in the time I was looking at it, it came to life and started to walk. Not being scared, but more indifferent too what was happening, me and my boyfriend continued to walk until we got to another pool, after we passed some big stairs. There were three bodies, one of them belonging to a girl with black hair. There were people gathered around the pool like they were waiting for something to happen and in the next moment some of them jumped into the pool and went next to that girl. Me and my boyfriend did the same thing as them and we waited to see what was happening when the girl came to life. I can't really explain how she was, she didn't look alive even if her face was human. She wasn't pale either, but somehow I knew she was nothing but an evil entity that took over that body. The girl got attached to my boyfriend after that and she became somehow his guardian, or that's what she told me. After that she kept making a hard time for me. AFter a while as we all walked together we got to another bridge, this time smaller than the first one. On that bridge the girl started to bully me and my boyfriend did nothing against that. She said something to me, to prove who I am and I hesitated to do so, saying I will not fall into her trap, but after that she continued bugging me about it and I said okay, I will do it only to get rid of her big and annoying mouth. At that point I marked a circle at my feet and I stood in the middle of it. I don't know what it was suppose to be, but it didn't feel right. When she saw I hesitated to continue the ritual, she said that I have to show her my tail if I want everything to be good and she was making fun of me because of some power and other things (?)... To complete the ritual I needed horse blood and the next second a dark brown, almost black horse appeared next to me like he was smiling and the horse showed me its teeth. When I looked at them I saw blood coming through them and the horse bent his head so I could take its blood. He was willingly giving me his blood. After I took it, I draw a pentacle in front of my right leg with the horse blood, I said an incantation I don't remember, but it sounded dark and scary and then the sky started to become red and stormy clouds came toward us.One particular cloud looked like it was pointing towards me. The sky started to brake very oddly and grey and black clouds started to appear on it, but even if in the air I could feel a storm approaching us, it was really quit around us. The girl was waiting impatient when my Patron God appeared behind us and he took me into his arm, making the circle disappear. He was looking like a beast, with horns and with a tail... He was very dark and very tall, like a giant and at first I was scared of him, but he told me its no need to feel like this because he will never hurt me. After that he told the "zombie girl" that I don't have a tail and that as his child I do not need a one, because I am not an ordinary child of his... and that if she will ever approach me again, he will kill her.... That moment felt very real and when I woke up I was still feeling Ahriman's cold presence next to me in bed...
There were more things into it, but I don't remember everything.... I forgot to write it down after I waked up and there were other things that my God told me, but I prefer not to tell them. The thing is that I would need an interpretation, because is kind of driving me crazy this dream. I am not to good at interpreting dreams. And the part with the "tail" it was really strange and weird. It was the only thing beside the horse that I was actually seeing it like I was looking through some macro lenses, that was very evident to me in the dream. And the pools, too... Since I started to accept him as my God, I have these weird dreams with him, or about him. And he always addresses me as his child... I feel protected and safe, but I know that the God who chose me is from a dark side... I shouldn't be scared or anything, but this dream and the thing with the tail made me a little bit worried... And I want to say that this is not the entire dream. I don't remember all the dream and the exact facts. Another thing I want to say, is that this God, Ahriman (as he told me to call him) always seems to want to replace Selene and even if I call for her, she comes but soon after Ahriman comes too and she is leaving without a word. He is very dominant or so it seems
Sorry for writing so much... I just needed to explain everything if there is someone who is willing to help me interpret it. I would be much grateful to that person or to those who will answer me. Thank you!
Amaryss