The Third Circle (lyrics for the album)

[citrine]

Associated card: Two of Cups.
Associated track: http://bit.ly/1SGopbr

Welcome to this realm, the one that is within.
While I was wandering around that border
(Apparently from that kind of dream)
I realized something that can change
Apparent flow of things.

You were around all the time
(I know, I know)
But I could never notice you before,
I never noticed you before.

Wish I could've noticed it before,
Before I went with the wrong flow
And I couldn't stop the fall
Into oblivion and I thought
I wouldn't recover from that all.

But, suddenly, a beam of light
Guided me through that maze
Within dark place
Within that space
That I wanted to leave at once with glowing eyes.
A burst of anger made me realize:

Eternal happiness lies just ahead
And that's you who finally waited for me
In the end
Of that dark maze, and it never cease to amaze
How people manage to find each other
In that place that is emptiness.
I know that in the end (eventually) I'll stick
To
You.
All is true.
Stick to you.
Only you,
Just you,
Within this realm.

I'll stick to you,
All is true,
Stick like glue,
Only you,
Just you.

Thanks to Linnea Å., Emil Ö. and Cisca van D. for inspiration.
Thanks to Ifeoma C. for experience.

ARS SONOR / "This Realm" / August 2014

[citrine]

Associated card: Three of Swords.
Associated track: http://bit.ly/20IXfFb

I can't believe that this has happened!
How could I fall for THAT?!
Where were my eyes, where was my judgement?
Why could I never stop

Before, all of a sudden,
It ended like disaster?
It was a second time.
I wish it could end faster.

But at the moment I was miserable.
I thought to end my life.
All hopes were lost, there was no future.
But who said I was right?

In the end I felt much better
Without that teen "i kris".
I finally left that gravity field
Of black hole that she is.

That black hole that sucked away all energy
Is not around anymore,
And good people started to appear in my life.
I couldn't wish for more.

Still, I can't believe that this has happened!
How could I fall for THAT?!
Where were my eyes, where was my judgement?
But I'm glad that this has stopped.

Thanks to Kristin E. for experience.

ARS SONOR / "The Black Hole" / September 2014

[citrine]

Associated card: Six of Swords.
Associated track: http://bit.ly/1Q5ALTC

Every action must have a reaction
And the consequences are harsh, indeed, all the time.
The karma hit me hard, harder than I thought.
It's useless to whine. I must produce some positive action.

Aggression is never productive. I learnt this from experience.
Maybe it was too late, but likely not too late, because
The life goes on, although everything could repeat
Until I learn from my mistakes and from that particular cause.

Cause and effect.

I live with consequences of everything I've done.
Everything has happened for the sake of education.
I want a re-boot of my life, but I'm not sure if it helps or not,
I could escape the circle, but could it be that promised salvation?

If any salvation was promised, I'm not sure about that.
Promises have little power, again, from my point of view.
Commitment is a rare thing, it seems like every time
Everything ends up in the void. But again, it's useless to whine.

Some positive action must be produced all the time,
Unless I want to wander around in circles
For the rest of my miserable life.

I want a re-boot of my life, but I'm not sure if it helps or not,
I could escape the circle, but could it be that promised salvation?
There's no one to exercise leniency on the case,
Because there is no punishment.
Everything happens for the sake of education.

I'm not sure if it's whining or just venting everything out,
But the first step regarding positive action must be thinking
About what I could live without.

I surely can survive without hypocrisy, without lies,
Without manipulative attitude.
But first I need to look at myself straight in the eyes.
To be honest is not enough,
I need to give up on being pushy and aggressive,
And manipulative (just a bit), and unstable, and obsessive.

I'm not being harsh at myself, it's a cold truth.
But I will be better than that.
I'm heading towards the path of perfection.
A cold white lightning embraces my path.

The lightning embraces me and shines through me,
I never forget that all energy is a form of life, and so,
The ultimate action
Will be that I will go with the lightning
Towards the path of perfection.

Thanks to Linnea Å. for inspiration.
Thanks to Ifeoma C. for experience.

ARS SONOR / "Cause and Effect" / September 2014

[citrine]

Associated card: Five of Cups.
Associated track: http://bit.ly/1KDw2fK

The agony of perpetuity.
Miserable wandering around in circles,
Around the huge gravity bubble
That sucks out life and everything good in life,
Leaving me as empty shell.
Can't break the wretched circle,
The gravity bubble will never let me out.
I can turn my head and look around
To see happy faces,
To see seemingly endless possibilities,
But I can just watch helplessly and suffer.
Nothing more.

ARS SONOR / "The Agony of Perpetuity" / October 2014

[citrine]

Associated card: The Star.
Associated track: http://bit.ly/1Q5KeKC

Man måste vara sig själv och acceptera sitt förflutna,
Och arbeta på sin nuvarande för att skapa sin framtiden.
Ibland kan man uppfattas som nånting annorlunda
Men man är ju unik och inte konstig heller.
Man måste vara sig själv, det är det enda sättet
Att rätta människor som man längtar för hittar en självklart.
För att hitta kärlek man måste vara ärlig...
Då är det enda sättet att hitta någon, äntligen, tillslut.

Längtan efter kärlek känns enormt dessa dagar, tyvärr,
Men man måste vara tålmodig och tänka positivt.
Det är ju bara sex månader av ensamhet för mig,
Förr eller senare kommer jag att hitta dig.
Jag längtar efter kärlek men jag måste vara tålmodig:
Kärlek kommer alltid oväntad, även plötsligt.
Men nu känns det säkert att hon är på väg redan.
Hon som är den enda, den enda tjej för mig.

ARS SONOR / "Längtan efter Kärlek" / November 2014

[citrine]

Associated card: Eight of Cups.
Associated album: http://bit.ly/20TFlMz

Clarification: Remember that short story about Buddha and the bandit? You could feel mighty because you can wound and destroy, but the real mighty ones know how to create and to heal instead. Once you cut off the branch of a tree, you cannot put it back again. Once you've stabbed a heart of someone loyal to you, you can't heal it, the damage is done. The heart will heal by itself, but the scars are to remain there forever. And this is a two-way road as well... I was really reluctant to release this album because it contains the last outbursts of anger and pain I felt during second half of 2014, before my awakening process had started. Concentrated anguish of the last glimpse... of the dark night of a soul. The last glimpse of the search “without”, the beginning of the search “within”. The penultimate chapter of the long night. 4AM and the healing rain pouring on the bleeding wounds of the tree, on the broken branches scattered on the soil around. The eleventh hour, my dear sand traveller... Time to make peace with the past. Let it go with love, for you can only invite the new in your life by detaching from the old. And the new branches will grow with time... for the morning is almost here. We have so much to exchange, my friend, but look beyond the horizon, beyond this veil of painful memories... You see it now. Everything will be alright.

ARS SONOR / "The Third Circle" / 2014-2015