PPD can be absolutely devastating to families. It's like squirrels on me that have taken over your brain and emotions. I would do a clarity spell tor yourself, and send out sincere good wishes for the g/f and new baby. I would also try to put things in perspective. You were dealing with a transient mental illness that caused you to behave erratically. It doesn't make any of it right, but it does she'd a different light on things. Behaving badly because your brain is not your own, is not the same thing as behaving badly out of a malicious desire.