Whitewitch8712, welcome to the board. Thank you for sharing with us your difficult situation, and I hope something of what is suggested is of help to you. Here are some of my thoughts on this...
Spellcasters and Guilt
moonraingirl wrote:There was a report about this kind of fortune tellers in local newspaper. They will tell you are cursed and ask for a large amount of money. When you pay them to get rid of it, they'll say there's a larger problem and ask for even more money and will repeat it several times.
There was a report of a "witch" who told a certain lady that all money that she had was cursed and she asked her to bring all her money in an envelope so that the which can remove the curse. So the witch did some abracadabra with the envelope and when the lady got home, there were only white papers instead of money in it!
She called the police but the which left the country meanwhile.
Yep. I would say $400 is going to turn into $4,000, or more. These scams are scripted
. There's always "another spell" these people will "need" to do after they do the last one. Because I wanted a chuckle, and I had a few spare moments on my hands, I once met with a "Psychic-Readings-for-$5" person. Sure enough, due to "all that negative energy causing bad luck" around me (said by the reader with a very scared, concerned expression, lol), she informed me that it turns out what I reeeaally
needed, instead, was actually $500 worth of "cleansing work" (which probably would have turned into $5,000 before long). Who'd'a thunk it, right?
Of course, I gasped with an equally scared, concerned expression, "Oh wow, is it that bad? Really?!" I remember I kept looking her straight in the eye, but she kept blinking, or looking away, or looking down or somewhere else. Lying to someone who knows you're lying ain't so easy, lol.
Yes, these readers/spellcasters will set you up with monthly payments
, no joke, which people actually pay, fearing the reader/spellcaster will send an evil curse if they don't pay (which probably isn't far from the truth). I've heard of gullible victims losing homes and other property over these peoples' shenanigans. We mods have to chase them off this board constantly, as they post little thinly-veiled, phony "testimonial" posts
, pretending to be pleased customers who are merely sharing a great referral.
Sounds like your guilt is making you the perfect target. The Catholic Church has historically taught that people could just buy their way to whatever it is they want, that God has a handy little price list for everything. Since the influence of Catholicism has pretty much touched every continent on the planet, and all Protestant religions have roots in Catholocism, I think this general mentality trickles down subconsciously into non-Catholic realms and situations, as well. But, in my opinion, your throwing money at this won't help you, Whitewitch8712.
The mess you need to clear yourself from ...I think only time could heal. You are understandably suffering from a bunch of very uncomfortable feelings right now: guilt for both messing around with another woman's man, and for cheating on your own "love of my life" husband (probably a really good guy); pain and humiliation for being used romantically then unceremoniously dumped; and loneliness from keeping all this a secret from your husband. That's a lot to deal with. There no doubt has been, and will continue to be, a lot of crying, inner reflection, anger, and other feelings on your part, that you're just going to have to continue working through. That's the only real way to "clear this mess." A spellcaster can't make it go away for you...but CAN make your money go away for you.
Whitewitch8712 wrote:So I dusted off my old book of shadows and saw a spell I created. Basically using the strawberry moon, I created a circle of pyramid salt around me, I wore my quartz necklace and lit a white candle. I let a drop of my blood burn and then I burned her name on a piece of paper. Asking the spirits for forgiveness of my sins, of letting my heart love the wrong person. But I couldnt carry her burden anymore and to disbind what she had unbind...Does anyone have any take on the spell I casted? Anybody have any suggestions for my particular situation?
Hmm. I'm going to be honest with you, I don't get this spell at all. It seems a bit convoluted and misdirected. This phrase really confuses me: "disbind what she had unbind." Huh? You don't even know if she really did any spell work on you, it's just what some reader told you. Even if she did, she would have rightfully been trying to keep her family together, so how were you carrying her
burden? You wrote in your original*
title you need protection. That's like someone about to steal a dress from a department store praying for protection from the security guards so she won't get caught and prosecuted...maybe it's the store that needs protection.
Also, I don't understand the burning your blood part and burning her
name on the paper. Those are more like things someone would do to bind themselves TO someone, like a blood oath ritual or something. I don't think that was your intention. In fact, I can't say I understand why you are focusing on your ex-lover's woman in any aspect of your spell work (you wrote "wife/gf" ...which is it, wife or girlfriend?). Seems like it would be a better idea to just leave her out of everything, and focus on yourself (cutting away your attachment to the guy, etc.) and that's it.
Like I told the person in this post, focus on what you want to draw to you, not what you don't want: Spell Work for Business/Employment
. Like you, he too was basing spell work on "countering" unconfirmed magic he believed "might have been done" to him, while totally ignoring the goals he claims he really wants to accomplish in life (ideally where his focus should
be). I think whatever spell work you do should include some self-love elements, as well.
I don't know if you plan to disclose any of this to your husband, if you haven't already. But, there is the possibility that he could somehow find out. You still have some control over how that plays out. Either he could hear about it in a discussion you initiate in a controlled, thought-out way, or he could discover what happened out of the blue, by hearing about it "on the street," which, these days, could include the internet, or other unconventional means. Which would you rather?
Either way, I'm not going to belabor this thought, I just threw it out there. But, I do hope you are able to be truthful with him about this because I sense there is definitely some shadow work to be done here, unpleasant things you might not want to face. Is there something about your marriage you're really not happy about, but have not confronted honestly, not spoken it out loud? If so, there's a hole there, a void in your spirit, and it wouldn't be a surprise if you attracted more Mr. Not Rights to you, and, believe it or not, had additional affairs in the future. It's best to address what I would say is your Shadow Self
trying to communicate with you. But, that's all I'll say on all this; I'll let you take it from there.
To help you establish your integrity again, to yourself and to your spirit helpers (such as ancestors, etc..), consider taking this ritual bath and tailoring a few of the details to your situation: http://everythingunderthemoon.net/forum ... 24355.html
(I'm big on baths, they work so well!). For instance, for the letter-writing part in the bath ritual, I suggest you write some letters of atonement to the people you've hurt spiritually-speaking (you aren't giving these letters to them, you're just writing them to help you process your feelings and heal), even if they don't yet know about your affair with the man, such as:
1. Letter to your husband apologizing for what you've done, explaining what was in your head and heart at the time, and being honest about anything you feel you are not getting in the marriage (if anything), etc.
2. Letter to yourself about why what you did was not self-loving, and how you plan to conduct yourself if you confront a similar situation, maybe also discuss the grief you feel, forgiving yourself, etc.
3. Letter to the man's "wife/gf" apologizing for coming between them, as well as disrespecting their family
4. And maybe write a letter saying goodbye to Mr. Not Right, the lessons you learned from the experience, etc.
These were just suggestions. Do what your heart says to do.
Perhaps these threads might offer additional insights or suggestions you might find helpful:
Anti-scam and Fraud Information
Restoring Love & Harmony After Infidelities -Any Rituals?
Spell for Moving on from a Relationship
Self Love Spell
Self-love Candle Spell & Love Charm Empowerment Spell
(I partly wrote this)
The Shadow Self
Knowing & Embracing Your Shadow
(Xiao wrote this)
I wish you the best, and if you'd like, please keep us posted on how you're doing.
*Note: I changed the original title, "Please hear my story, I need protection and healing," to the current title, better reflecting the post's content, see #8: FORUM RULES - Please Read Before Posting.