Here are my reading results for you, using the Heroine's Journey spread ... again my usual disclaimer that this is merely my interpretation and only one possible outcome. Hope you like it! Here goes:
1. The Heroine -- Page of Wands: An opportunity for creativity and passion
In the beginning of your journey, the Page of Wands represents you. You may have an opportunity coming soon to ignite your energy and passions, which are currently being suppressed and are sorely lacking in your life.
2. The Quest -- 4 of Wands: Celebration, freedom, excitement
What you're hoping for is celebration, freedom, and excitement, which are all elements that are currently missing from your lie. This seems to hearken back to the Page of Wands that represents you -- you want that sort of carefree, independent energy that comes from childhood innocence (the energy of the Page).
3. Refusal of the Call -- 9 of Cups: Indulgence, self-satisfaction, delight
I wonder if this is a sign that the reason why you're afraid to seek out what you desire (joy, delight, pleasure, passion, etc.) is because you've always considered yourself a responsible person. The 9 of Cups signals a lot of wish fulfillment and delight, but to some extent you are afraid that really going for what you desire would be selfish, putting yourself above others. But it's also that sense of responsibility that is sapping you of your strengthan and energy, so perhaps it is time to seek out some of the pleasure you've been denying yourself.
4. The Guide -- 2 of Pentacles: Balance, flexibility, adaptable
Your guide in this phase of your development is the 2 of Pentacles, who can show you that it is possible to both juggle your responsibilities and to care for yourself. The 2 of Pentacles is also a symbol of fun and laughter (in my Shadowscapes Deck, it depicts a man juggling, and he seems to be enjoying himself!), yet it seems to be a more mature kind of joy -- kind of like the parent who can manage the demands of their children yet also enjoy the moment (perhaps there is a person in your life like this?). Pleasure and fun are not inherently antithetical to being responsible, and figuring out this balance is going to be key in your journey.
5. Road of Trials -- Knight of Wands: Charming, self-confident, daring, adventurous, but also cocky, foolhardy, and restless
Again, in the theme of balancing passion and responsibility, you are going to have to deal with the Knight of Wands (which could be in yourself, but perhaps also a signifier of a particular person in your life). She can be full of energy and life, and you may admire her courage and passion, but sometimes she can also lead into plenty of trouble. The Knight's energy is inherently unstable, so one of your major lessons is going to be knowing when to rein her in and when to unleash her power.
6. The Dragon -- 5 of Swords: Self-interest
Interestingly, the Dragon (our greatest obstacle) is represented by the 5 of Swords, which represents self-interest, perhaps to the point of dishonor or losing your integrity. Particularly, a very narrow kind of self-interest that doesn't concern itselves with people around you. On your journey to find self-satisfaction, there may be a temptation to lose yourself in this kind of self-interest, with negative effects to those around you. You will need to remember that we are all connected, and that others' joy will only increase your joy, and others' sorrow will only increase your sorrow. It is still important to act in self-interest, but with the expanded view of self that includes our relationships to everyone and everything around us -- that will help you defeat the Dragon.
7. Death -- 7 of Pentacles: Assessing, reaping a reward, considering a direction change
I wrote "Death" into the spread to represent what you will have to leave behind you. The 7 of Pentacles represents a moment when you're at a crossroads, deciding what to do. It seems that the theme of transformation is particularly strong in your journey -- particularly, it will come to making a choice as you move into a new phase of your life. What kind of life do you want to lead? That's a decision that only you can decide, and you'll use everything you learned along the way to help you decide.
8. New Knowledge -- Hermit: Solitude, guidance, wisdom, introspection
The Hermit represents the wisdom and knowledge gained from introspection. I suspect that once you've made the choice, you will have new wisdom, but more importantly, the capacity to look inward and seek new wisdom whenever you desire.
9. Boon -- King of Pentacles: Enterprising, reliable, supporting, steady, generous
The Boon represents what you will take back with you to share with others. This is the King of Pentacles, who is a stable, reliable, generous figure and whom others know they can depend on. Perhaps this is a new figure entering into your life (a new romantic partner, supervisor, mentor figure, etc.), of perhaps that you will embody the King of Pentacles' energy -- he is responsible, but also kind and giving, and surrounded by love and family.
10. The Heroine Returned -- King of Swords: Intellectual, analytical, articulate, just, and ethical
Sometimes, the quest that we started out looking for isn't what we come back with. This isn't to say that we failed, but that what is valuable to us changes as we grow older (a heroine may have gone looking for adventure, but after her journey she comes home with a renewed appreciation of her family, for instance). It seems from the King of Swords that you will gain new abilities (alluded to with the Hermit) in terms of wisdom and intellect. Juxtaposed with the King of Pentacles, you seem to have found a good balance between air and earth, knowledge and practicality. What stands out to me about the King of Swords is also that she has the power of discernment: the power of the sword is knowing what to cut and defending that which you keep. In other words, the power to know what is essential to your life, and leaving behind what is not. You will know what burdens that you currently bear aren't worth it, and how to immerse yourself in just the ones that bring you meaning and fulfillment.
~ Xiao Rong ~ 小蓉 ~ Little Lotus ~