blue_moon wrote:Becks asked me to check in here - it's kind of funny how many of us have similar issues at about the same times.
I was never quite sure if the term empath would fit me. But bevore i became this "plate" trying to hold energy as if it was a bowl i actually was more than "highly sensitive" i sensed and felt feelings .. you all know what I'm talking bout.
I'm in this state of feeling drained since years now. Working really hard on me and my stability. But i just don’t recover and my tiny bit of energy gets blown from my flat dish by every chance of negativity.
Myrth - if it's as bad as it is right now i feel i loose access to ki. I'm still a beginner - so hopefully I'll learn to reconnect faster (having a friend do reiki helped).
Katrinkah - i also have the feeling my shielding is to weak. As if my visualisation wears of within short time.
What book were you reading?
I am glad to hear your friend was able to give you Reiki. When you are able, I strongly urge you to get attuned to level 1 Reiki. Level 1 is mostly about self-treatment. I was in a similar place as you describe when I got level 1. I started doing Reiki on myself every morning and evening. It helped. I got level 2, which is where you are introduced to some of the symbols, my access to ki got stronger, I continued daily practice and began giving Reiki to others, and I got much better. I went on to get my level 3. I must say, it was life-altering.
Unshielded, I feel what others are feeling, strongly, acutely. And, my energy got so sapped that some days it was a struggle to get out of bed. I had an unhealthy relationship with an energy vampire at that time as well. Even when we were not in the same place, I could feel, overwhelmingly, what he was feeling at that moment. He suffered from poorly controlled bipolar disorder. It was rough, because I was getting all the emotional blow-back from him, and I was not prepared to handle it. Now, I have the tools to protect myself AND still help others.
I would also encourage you to get a complete medical exam. I did as I was going through this. The doctor did not find anything, so I was confident it really was an energy and shielding issue. But it is definitely a possibility that you could have an underlying medical issue that needs treatment.
Sending you love and light.