I own only a car, and a phone. Still paying on the car.
My family life is dwindling.
My honey is on edge. Constant fights about stupid crap.
My children miss me.
I can't properly practice where I'm at, for fear of homeowner , atheist, who assumes he knows more about pagans/the craft than I do. And feels I'm a fake.
My mental stability.
And physical ailments that docs are having a hard time controlling. (PTSD, BIPOLAR/ Dissacociative amnesia, Borderline personality/anxiety/memory loss/ rheumatory arthritis/fibromialgia/ asthma/eating disorder/suicidal tendencies/ Digestive issues stemming from my food issues/ulcers, in stomach and mouth/ blown discs in L4-5 , sciatic nerve muscle-nerve loss/balance problems.)
As if that werent all my issues, (there's more but it's family crap) ..I wanted to light a real candle to help a friend tonight, and give last rights to my pops, died yesterday, and children's great grandmother, last week, . My room mate refuses to let me, and I can't see well, due to Fibro, so my sacred area in the dark, pulling out the herbs, incense, finding things in darkness, with no way to illuminate a candle .. I'm feeling sad and pissed.
I feel my freedoms are violated. However, there's hope, I may have a new home by this weekend. 5-6th July, '14.
Which happens to be 1 day short of my running away from an abusive ex husband/drug addict. July 7th 1997. 17 years.
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/can ... ng&gi=EUTM
Hope?.. Yes. Cautious, definitely. Still livid, quite. Just posting this. Putting it in writing helps. I don't know for how long, but thanks for listening to me bitch.
No need to reply.. Really, I don't want sympathy, just understanding.
Thank you. If you feel you want to reply. That is your right..
Blessings to all my friends.