Dark Lady wrote:there is literally nothing I can do.
Accept that.
And perhaps consider the perspective that death is a personal matter between that person and his/her maker, and not something one should feel an obligation to, in any way, "fix," even if one has precogged the actual death event itself. Death just is. None of us is here indefinitely, not even a favored celebrity we admire. They die, too. In fact, from your description of that celebrity's behavior, it sounds like maybe her soul is ready to move on, and might give things another go in her next lifetime. She might have been sexually abused (which is rampant in Hollywood), and is in so much pain she thinks death would be a solution. Who knows what her situation really is. Whatever it is, it's her deal, not yours, not mine.
Dark Lady wrote:Please tell me how to control this. It is so stressful
Personally, I do not recommend your getting into someone else's head or otherwise tampering with situations you have involuntarily precogged or empathed. I do recommend, as a protective measure for your own well-being, that you train yourself to resist letting your attention get sucked into the drama of your precognitions, and train yourself to, instead,
stay in your own energy and
regularly maintain healthy psychic boundaries. I believe that for peace of mind, mastering those skills is a
must for anyone with pronounced empathic and/or precognitive abilities. These are skills from which you continue benefiting for the rest of your life.
And in your case in particular, it's my sense that if you do not learn to practice these skills, you might one day find yourself so overwhelmed with being so invested in everyone else's problems (even those of people you don't know), that you may feel you have no other choice for relief but to resume the pharmaceuticals again. You probably don't really want to do that, but because you were medicated so young and never taught to cope otherwise, you might find it all too easy to go back to what's familiar. But the easy route is not always the best route, especially when it comes to soul growth.
Energy follows thought, so it may be quite helpful to learn to restructure your thoughts in order to gain control over your emotional reactions to intrusive precognitive impressions. Affirmation cards are a simple but effective tool to help you do that.
Create Affirmation Cards
Write some positive affirmations about maintaining your individuality in the face of your precogs on 3x5 cards, and
keep these cards in your wallet at all times. Visualize how you'd like to be (peacefully self-contained, happily in control, serene and free, whatever). Then write brief phrases on the cards that reflect those visions, one phrase per card. Keep it focused but simple. Let each card have its own thought form energy, its own personal message to your heart.
Maybe on the reverse side of each card, draw a nice sigil of your own invention based on each phrase. I think the more you put into the cards, the more you'll get out of them. But too, I think it is important to keep them very simple so that they are not distracting, but remain straight to the point.
Another suggestion might be to make a few cards that have positive affirmations for the people and situations you precog, that say things like that situation is resolving itself in the highest and best good for all, or that soul is where it need to be on its journey, etc. Let the words reflect the energy of you gently and lovingly letting these people and situations go, watching them fly away, like butterflies out of your hands. You bless them, know the universe will take care of them, then let them go.
Remember, these are positive affirmations, to move you in the direction in which you want to go. So be sure that in your wording you focus on what you are doing, what you
do want, not on what you won't do and what you don't want. If you focus on the negative, you subconsciously reinforce it (this is a good rule of thumb to follow in spell writing & casting, as well
).
Interrupt the Behavior
Every time you allow yourself to feel anxious about other people's life business that you have inadvertently precogged, resist allowing yourself to continue ruminating about it. Until you get used to mentally interrupting your reactions to the precogs, it might help to:
* Gently but firmly say, "Stop" to yourself out loud
* Call a friend or relative who understands your dilemma (an "accountability partner," as they're sometimes called). If you do that, be sure to agree with that person in advance that that you are going to call him or her when you get another distressing hit.
* If you have no one to call, journal about it in a notebook or the notes feature in your phone
* Focus on breathing until you calm down
I have learned from my own experience with the same problem you have that by putting some space between your precogs, and your emotional reactions to them, you could slowly gain control over both. But for this to work, it requires consistent self-monitoring, and a strong commitment to change.
Use the Cards
After interrupting your thoughts and emotions, and calming yourself, use the cards to restructure your thinking and gain equilibrium. Slowly and clearly
read out loud what you've written on them. Really focus on the words and meanings behind them with conviction and feeling. Close your eyes as you repeat the phrases. Briefly glance at the sigils. Read through the deck more than once if you need to do so. Because you are not used to exercising this boundary within yourself, it might feel like you are lying when you say the affirmations.
Work through that feeling, and keep at it. Soon you'll feel your subconscious and conscious minds clicking into synch with each other. You'll feel the emotional charge you've raised and attached to the precog event begin to fade, then slowly disappear. It will be "outside" of you now, and your emotional equilibrium will restore itself. You will enjoy a newfound sense of peace, and most importantly, you will feel a sense of mastery over your precog ability, which until now, has had mastery over you. You're the boss of it!
Move On
As you are already aware, more times than not there will always be "literally nothing [you] can do about" the many spontaneous, intrusive precognitions you get. It's just the way it is, and the way it will be. With each episode you experience, once you have regained your mental and emotional equilibrium, get on with the business at hand in your day, your week, your month, your year. Respect and honor the soul journeys of those around you, do what you came here to do. Don't look back.
Repeat as Needed
Every time you feel yourself slipping into the habit of feeding drama energy to a precog event, like responding to a troll in a chat forum, bust them cards out!!!
Work in the Hypnagogic State
For added efficacy, keep another set of the cards on your nightstand. Read them aloud, both right before you go to sleep, and in the morning as you awaken (especially while you're still in that groggy, hypnagogic state --that is the best time for programming yourself).
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The more you do these things, the better at maintaining your boundaries you will be. It's just skill-building, muscle-building. It's also habit-breaking, which is never an easy thing for anyone to do. But I've used cards like this when learning a new language, or practicing for a speech class, or changing deeply engrained habits of thought, so I know this works amazingly, surprisingly well. A psych teacher I had used to call this kind of thing "elaborative rehearsal," and swore by it, said that's how she got through grad school. She said it's important to say things out loud because you activate more areas of your brain, and embed new thoughts and behaviors more fully.
Keep using this simple technique to reinforce the mindset you'd like to have, keep rehearsing it, and before long, you won't need crutches any more. That muscle will become strong, and this will become an automatic, mental reflex. As a result, you will experience peace and self-confidence.
All the best to you.
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& cat hair just is.
