Hello all! I just wish to confirm something. I've been delving into spirit contact for a while now. It is part of my Wiccan rituals and part of my daily life. I've always felt connected to the dead, and always in a good way. I've had many paranormal experiences and am a firm believer in the influence that spirit has in our lives.
Now, again, I have lots of experience, however I am human and I find myself doubting if what I'm feeling and experiencing is truly happening. I wonder....am I just hoping so much that it WILL happen, my mind plays tricks on me? But then the next time I contact, I feel that it is so very real. I go back and forth like this all the time. I am very influenced and motivated by science. I'm a "need to see it to believe it" type of person. And yet, here I am, a witch, and contacting the dead on a regular basis. How contradicting it seems!!!! Sometimes I feel guilty for having any doubts whatsoever.
I call myself a firm believer, but then I have those instances where I'm doubting.
My question is....how can I affirm myself in my beliefs? I know it all has to do with my own insecurities and way of thinking, but I'm not sure how to strengthen my own affirmations. I'm sure it's all very normal, but I feel ashamed that I doubt.
Does anyone else experience these feelings? How do you handle them and focus yourself?
Thank you very much for reading!!