How did this all start for me? Well, at first I was Christian. However I never really thought about it. And that's not a good thing. I was not at all passionate about it. Sunday church was like the daily grind. I felt out of touch with the religion everyone here seemed to have.
Now this is where the silly part comes in. I started watching The Good Witch movies. I was so interested in miss Cassandra Nightengale's activities! Her little store where she sells candles, herbs, essential oils, tarot decks, masks, talismans, all kinds of witchy things. She used all of these things to help others.
And for some reason this movie popped the idea into my head to do a little digging. Do people like her really exist? Wouldn't it be cool if they had? Because I am so into fantasy and medieval and old world things. To my surprise I somehow stumbled across a pagan website! And that's how it all began. I began reading, and reading...and reading.
And soon after I just felt this huge connection to it. Like it's where I belonged all along. I was having (and still are having) mixed emotions. I felt extremely excited for discovering this, but I also felt betrayed and lied to. I know it's silly to feel this way, but I can't help but think that my heritage was taken away from me.
I wish I couldn't be angry about it. But, well I am. And I guess I need to work through it somehow. But anyway, that's how this all started. Soon, I found my god and goddess, and I'm doing all sorts of witchy things all on my own. I can honestly say that the first thing I think about in the morning these days, is religion related, as well as the last thing I think of when going to bed. NEVER in my 22 years on earth, have I EVER felt so passionate about religion.
I would like to make a toast (raises glass) to Miss Cassandra Nightengale, even though you are a fictional character, were it not for your witchy ways that piqued my curiosity, I would never have made this wonderful change in my life! Cheers!
