I've been there. And when you feel like you have no one to turn to, no one you can trust, it really makes it worse. But I promise you that isn't the case. Please, bend our ears here on the board. If you don't feel like you can talk at home, or that everything is just too overwhelming to deal with,
please vent it here. We'll listen, and we'll encourage you, because many of us have gone through the same thing. By posting this thread, you're reaching out, and I'm (and others) reaching back. No matter how isolated you feel, you aren't alone.
You're more than welcome to PM me, or any of the other mods, if you need to talk to someone. We'd be glad to listen. *Hugs*
If you haven't already, take a look at these threads. They contain both resources to help you cope, as well as personal stories of people who've survived suicide attempts.
where-find-help-t8810.htmlwant-kill-myself-can-you-help-t8800.htmlAnd just the forum itself:
suicide.htmlIn love and light,
~Heartsong