Depression, PTSD and low self esteem
Posted: Sun Jul 17, 2016 9:55 am
My doctors tried to diagnosed me with bipolar disorder: all I have is depression and anger. I'm angry because I see everyone around me happy. I live in a horrible environment with my parents and I'm trying to get out, it's really hard right now because I'm on disability. This year has been really hard on me: I had precancer on my cervix, kidney stones and I was in an abusive relationship. A lot of my friends abandoned me and keep telling me to get over it and it's making me really depressed. I feel like I'm crazy and I feel like nobody wants me to be around me because I'm always sad.
People pick up on my sadness and get really worn out by my energy. It makes me feel horrible. When people want to leave, it makes me feel ten times worse and I feel like they're trying to leave to get away from me because of my sadness. I know it's not true, my mind isn't right with all my sadness and overwhelmness right now. I cry over the smallest things because of my depression and I never used to be this way. Feel like such a burden on people.
Today I looked up a low self esteem book and a highly sensitive person book. I may even look up: empath book as well because I pick up environments and whenever people yell or scream it affects me deeply. I'm so tired and drained right now and I hope someone can talk to me right now. I talked to my therapist and it made me feel a lot better. I just get a lot of beneficial information from books.
People pick up on my sadness and get really worn out by my energy. It makes me feel horrible. When people want to leave, it makes me feel ten times worse and I feel like they're trying to leave to get away from me because of my sadness. I know it's not true, my mind isn't right with all my sadness and overwhelmness right now. I cry over the smallest things because of my depression and I never used to be this way. Feel like such a burden on people.
Today I looked up a low self esteem book and a highly sensitive person book. I may even look up: empath book as well because I pick up environments and whenever people yell or scream it affects me deeply. I'm so tired and drained right now and I hope someone can talk to me right now. I talked to my therapist and it made me feel a lot better. I just get a lot of beneficial information from books.