I want to hear about a "win"
Posted: Fri Aug 22, 2014 4:49 pm
Ok, this idea came from another forum, and it seems to be working out well. I'm just going to copy the first post over from there (with permission of course). Hopefully this helps cast light where is needed.
This is sort of like a prayer, I guess. I've had people pray for me, or send energy, and not felt anything, and I had an idea this might be a little more solid kind of praying.
I am tired. Bone-tired when I look at the work that needs doing in the world and in my life. I'm maybe losing my apartment, my graduate school is collapsing in on itself and potentially leaving me having to start my master's degree all over with another six figures of debt and no more medical fund, I see wonderful brilliant people in my life languishing and begging for medicine for their children while mediocre and even terrible people shoot on ahead. I see justice movements sidetracked by founder's syndrome and institutional dysfunction and ego tripping and people getting just enough of a sniff of safety that they abandon everyone else to go party and the whole thing comes apart. I keep seeing people who do terrible evil just slip through the fingers of any consequences. The icecaps are melting, the sky is coming apart, and a majority of the world doesn't think I'm a human being worthy of dignity and survival.
I have had to come face-to-face with the fact that all I wanted to do with my life is serve but that I live in a world that doesn't want to let me--doesn't want to let me make a living at it, doesn't want to let me at the tools and resources I need to save so much of what needs saving. I never wanted to be rich or famous--I just wanted to make life kinder and braver and safer for people in trouble. I'm coming to terms with the fact that there is not a safe place for me to go in this world, and no organization that can be trusted to treat me right or protect me unless I build it from the ground up, and that my career is going to be an ugly fight for every inch, for all the years I have left, and I am young yet and that thought is just exhausting. It feels like realizing I'm in an abusive relationship again except this time there's no divorce available.
I know we're supposed to focus on the fact that theoretically the arc of history is long, and all that, but I look at the way humans are treating humans in the news right now, and the way we're treating the planet, and the speed and scale of climate change and the numbers of the devastation not even to come, and it all just feels hopeless and pointless sometimes. I just get tired and overwhelmed.
So what I want, as a prayer, is:
Please, tell me about somewhere that it's going right. I know the news is biased toward disaster, and all. I want to hear about people struggling for justice and winning. I want to hear about the hungry getting fed. I want to hear about good people beating an unjust eviction, immoral laws getting overturned, a poisoned river getting cleaned, a species thought forever gone reappearing, a beloved lost thing unexpectedly found. I want to hear about love going right and the sick getting better and people surrounded by corruption choosing to do the right thing anyway. True stories. Maybe your stories, if you have them. Cute kitty pictures and motivational music and my therapist aren't cutting it because the enormity of the bad just crushes in.
I like and respect a lot of you. I'd like to know good things are happening to you and yours, sometimes. I'd like to make a prayer for this world built brick by brick out of our victories.
Tell me about a win, please. Maybe we can light a little torch here to come back to on the rough days.
This is sort of like a prayer, I guess. I've had people pray for me, or send energy, and not felt anything, and I had an idea this might be a little more solid kind of praying.
I am tired. Bone-tired when I look at the work that needs doing in the world and in my life. I'm maybe losing my apartment, my graduate school is collapsing in on itself and potentially leaving me having to start my master's degree all over with another six figures of debt and no more medical fund, I see wonderful brilliant people in my life languishing and begging for medicine for their children while mediocre and even terrible people shoot on ahead. I see justice movements sidetracked by founder's syndrome and institutional dysfunction and ego tripping and people getting just enough of a sniff of safety that they abandon everyone else to go party and the whole thing comes apart. I keep seeing people who do terrible evil just slip through the fingers of any consequences. The icecaps are melting, the sky is coming apart, and a majority of the world doesn't think I'm a human being worthy of dignity and survival.
I have had to come face-to-face with the fact that all I wanted to do with my life is serve but that I live in a world that doesn't want to let me--doesn't want to let me make a living at it, doesn't want to let me at the tools and resources I need to save so much of what needs saving. I never wanted to be rich or famous--I just wanted to make life kinder and braver and safer for people in trouble. I'm coming to terms with the fact that there is not a safe place for me to go in this world, and no organization that can be trusted to treat me right or protect me unless I build it from the ground up, and that my career is going to be an ugly fight for every inch, for all the years I have left, and I am young yet and that thought is just exhausting. It feels like realizing I'm in an abusive relationship again except this time there's no divorce available.
I know we're supposed to focus on the fact that theoretically the arc of history is long, and all that, but I look at the way humans are treating humans in the news right now, and the way we're treating the planet, and the speed and scale of climate change and the numbers of the devastation not even to come, and it all just feels hopeless and pointless sometimes. I just get tired and overwhelmed.
So what I want, as a prayer, is:
Please, tell me about somewhere that it's going right. I know the news is biased toward disaster, and all. I want to hear about people struggling for justice and winning. I want to hear about the hungry getting fed. I want to hear about good people beating an unjust eviction, immoral laws getting overturned, a poisoned river getting cleaned, a species thought forever gone reappearing, a beloved lost thing unexpectedly found. I want to hear about love going right and the sick getting better and people surrounded by corruption choosing to do the right thing anyway. True stories. Maybe your stories, if you have them. Cute kitty pictures and motivational music and my therapist aren't cutting it because the enormity of the bad just crushes in.
I like and respect a lot of you. I'd like to know good things are happening to you and yours, sometimes. I'd like to make a prayer for this world built brick by brick out of our victories.
Tell me about a win, please. Maybe we can light a little torch here to come back to on the rough days.