Let's begin with: The Trouble with my Ancestors!
I certainly would like to have my DNA tested to know for sure what cultures my ancestors belonged to but this shit is expensive. I have only so many Cents left after paying rent, electricity, gas and various doubts and of course food for myself and my nine furry friends, so I'll do with what i know from parents and general knowledge. The latter means I read articles like 'The standard German is descended from Celts, Germanic people and the Slaws' and I say yey wooohooo tell me all about it... and then they don't.
The family name of my farthers side is weird. I haven't heard it anywhere else. It could be Spanish or Italian, but also Old Persian...? I asked if anyone knows about it and they said, oh well probably Polish. Maybe. Why do you care again?
Anyway. This paternal side is doomed. My father was (is) a pedophile. My great grandfather was in jail for bigamy. My grand father was gardener, at least something, but he also used to beat his children (and who knows what else...). I left all of them behind me but they still block my roots. They are what I feel 'the German side' because I grew up in Germany with them and on the other side was my Polish maternal family as a hearsay.
My mother was Polish, well, was born there. She only spoke German with me though. Her mother was German born, too, because of the political border regulations or something. So it's not as interesting as I thought... but her name was very Slavic, so that was a comfort for me during the time i hated everything German because of the connection with my paternal family.
The area where I live used to be very populated by the Celts, that much I could find out. But it is nothing knew and also a tiny bit like...huh okay so what... I like some of their gods and I like Druidism but I feel that is not something that I can find in the past.
Now I got a strong feeling that I also carry Baltic heritage. Baltic is a name for Prussian, Latvian and Lithuianian culture though, to be fair and honest I've always thought of Prussia as German...? Anyway, that's not the part of me that I'm looking Baltic Myths. It's definitely Lithuanian what I feel drawn to, though also Latvia, and I feel oddly proud to make this claim. But since it's not proven I don't run around telling everybody. You are the first ones. :wink2:
My mother was very fascinated with Greek Myths, and there was a time I worked more with Greek Gods than I do now. I've been to Greece a few times, and it's not hard to imagine that a few ancestors lived in that great country, not hard at all.
And then there are the ancestors of the heart/spirit, I guess. I've always been most fascinated with the (original Bavarian) Empress Elisabeth of Austria and Ungaria. She also had a castle in Greece, by the way, and I have visited it, so so sooo cool!
I always had a strange and unexplainable dislike for the Romans, though, and feel like they are my enemies? I guess there runs a ancestral memory of some battles.
The only ancestors I have contact with right now are my mother, her transition did her really well and now we get along when before in her life there stood many things between us. But it's still not the tightest bond there can be. Then there is my twin sister, who sends me so much love all the time that I sometimes question if I deserve that. But I am not allow to doubt it so... yes i am very grateful for her help.
The last one is a spiritual ancestor who I found a few years ago. He was an artist in his life, and if I can say anything for certain about myself it's that I'm creative and artistic. I wouldn't have claimed that this can be a connection but well, he says its enough and since I'm not well equipped in the ancestor department I accepted him into my soul family so to say...
Oops that was pretty long now.