Not New But A Vow To Do Better
Posted: Tue May 07, 2019 8:43 am
Long time no chat!
I came on here about a year ago, made the intro blurb and then ghosted away to the background again like the big ol anti-social lump that I am. When I joined, I had every intention to contribute to the community but I clearly failed at that. I went through a inner battle with repeating to myself that I had nothing constructive to contribute to you lovely folks, even if I did have things to contribute I was convinced that someone else has already shared that info or didn't care about my opinions on the topic. Basically, I was having the convos on topics with myself instead of reaching out to you folks like I should have from the start. I want to learn about others' perspectives, I want to have a discussion regardless of how awful at it I feel I am. I strongly feel like the soul needs to connect with like energy. Every time I ghost on here, I repeatedly take notice of how great this community is, so my fears are just self inflicted.
My soul needed quite a bit of solo time for a while. Time to collect my thoughts and understand my foundations. I feel like in one way it for sure made me stronger, but now I need to learn and dedicate to being more connected with other energy sources. Growth can't happen if you are stagnant.
I'm treating this post like a vow to work harder to be more connected with this community. I may not know where to start, if some topics are too old to re-open, or unsure how to respond, but I try to pipe up at least once a week. If I fail at the once a week, I will work on being more forgiving to myself for my slips and strive to do better the next week.
I came on here about a year ago, made the intro blurb and then ghosted away to the background again like the big ol anti-social lump that I am. When I joined, I had every intention to contribute to the community but I clearly failed at that. I went through a inner battle with repeating to myself that I had nothing constructive to contribute to you lovely folks, even if I did have things to contribute I was convinced that someone else has already shared that info or didn't care about my opinions on the topic. Basically, I was having the convos on topics with myself instead of reaching out to you folks like I should have from the start. I want to learn about others' perspectives, I want to have a discussion regardless of how awful at it I feel I am. I strongly feel like the soul needs to connect with like energy. Every time I ghost on here, I repeatedly take notice of how great this community is, so my fears are just self inflicted.
My soul needed quite a bit of solo time for a while. Time to collect my thoughts and understand my foundations. I feel like in one way it for sure made me stronger, but now I need to learn and dedicate to being more connected with other energy sources. Growth can't happen if you are stagnant.
I'm treating this post like a vow to work harder to be more connected with this community. I may not know where to start, if some topics are too old to re-open, or unsure how to respond, but I try to pipe up at least once a week. If I fail at the once a week, I will work on being more forgiving to myself for my slips and strive to do better the next week.