I know how you feel. My books were maliciously destroyed by my uber-devout Catholic parents. If you think it would help, you could check MY topic. Search: Family--- the Ties that Bind and Gag. If you (like me) haven't got any books on Wicca or Witchcraft, you could begin some online efforts. Google (and all search engines) are proof that Goddess wants us to be. happy LOL. I advise you to stay in the closet while at living with your parents, especially if your health/safety are at risk. If you haven't done your year and a day study, I encourage you to do so. If you're looking for supplies, thrift stores, porch sales, yard sales, white elephant sales and garage sales are good places to look. However, with any item you are using in a spell(s), you will want to bless/consecrate the item (even if it's new). Also, for info you can go to a library or book store. Some thrift stores even have books on witchcraft. In fact, my first book on Wicca was from a thrift store. You might be able to justify some of your purchases if (like me) you have an interest in unusual things, essential oils, or Dungeons and Dragons type things (not one of my interests, but to each their own). Good Luck and Blessed Be!
In nature there's no blemish but the mind; None can be called deformed but the unkind.
--- Shakespeare, Twelfth Night, Act III, Scene IV