Its about time I start writing in my BOS again so I'll post my latest entry here as well. First of all just if you are curious, "Silver Feather Writings" comes from the cover of my actual BOS where I decorated it with an image of a silver quill pen and some random writing-esque marks.
I just sent a letter via email to my pagan teacher. I've been her student since 2009 and I have learned nothing new that I couldn't find myself. I came to the realization that what I needed was never a teacher, but rather, confidence in myself. I thought having a teacher would make me a better witch but I guess I always knew that having a teacher isn't the best thing for me. In school I was always distracted during my boring and mundane lessons because I could not listen and do at the same time History lessons are very much book learning and math is more hands on, I need both and magick gives me just that, so I never really needed a teacher to guide me, not when I started listening to myself.
So no, I will never go through an official "Year and a Day" study but thats more of a wiccan thing not an eclectic pagan thing, we are always learning so why limit my year and a day to just the basics when I've been learning for 17 years? Rereading the same material for two years in a row now won't get me any further.
I thought I'd be more worried about how my now former teacher would handle the news, she could be reading the email right now, I don't know, but I just feel a sense of calm and accomplishment. I do feel a tinge of guilt not towards possibly hurting melinda's feelings, but for ignoring my spirit, and my spirit guide. What better teacher can you find than one who has always be meant to guide you?