First of all man, you gotta stop spamming all over this message board, honestly. I think the reason nobody's responding to you may be because your frantic posts are the written equivalent to you walking around a public place, grabbing people by the shoulders, shaking them and screaming, "hey, hey, ya' gotta help me!" and after getting no response, running to other people doing the same. That may be how you're coming across to folks.
Secondly, try and look at your place in the overall, big picture right now. There are millions --millions-- of people, both in this country, and in the entire world at large, who are suffering horribly from the impact of the recent recession. Like Guardian Wolf wrote, if your job's in jeopardy, just go look for another one now, before you're let go. And if you get laid off before you find another one, apply for unemployment benefits like everyone else, to pay the bills. And if it comes down to it, apply for welfare and foodstamps, in order to survive and feed your kids ...bottom line, you gotta do what you gotta do to ride this thing out, just like the rest of us.
You don't have to answer this, but is there an addiction issue underlying part of the problem here? If an addiction to drugs or alcohol, or both, is contributing to the sexual issues you mentioned you're having with your wife, your financial issues, and the somewhat delusional posts you're making on this message board about power, God, "I need a strong witch," "Wow me," etc., then get help right away. Your family needs you clean, sober and sane through these hard times.
Finally, I've already suggested to you, in another post, to get a professional reading done. But I'm going to change that suggestion to perhaps getting some professional therapy of some sort to help you cope with all this. If you can't afford a psychiatrist, I suggest going back to the last Christian church you attended and making an appointment with an elder member there, someone trained in marriage and family counseling. They will probably offer this service for a nominal cost, if not entirely free, especially right now. Ask around. Many Catholic churches tend to run excellent family counseling services (it's good PR for them, so take advantage of it).
Maybe someone else has something to add to this, but these are my suggestions. Thanks.
In Love and Gratitude,
"Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see."
Awaken now, or be rudely awakened later. Either way, you WILL wake up.