by planewalker » Fri Jul 13, 2018 7:04 pm
My failing was just sheer stupidity because I felt my honor had been besmirched.{what is a smirch anyway} I, with the social dynamic, would have canned my rat's patootie faster then Xiao did. I couldn't see it at the time. The hubris I needed to conquer was not being able to put the thing most important to me in perspective. The wheel turns and you learn. At least that's always with us as a star to guide by.
As to matters of sex, I'm in a strange situation {which in Bangcock on a Friday night can be great fun, but I digress, if not fully transgress}. The only place we feel pain or pleasure or anything else is in our, call it, brain, for lack of the term I wish I had. I've always looked at everyone as unisexual. I probably find it easy to see because of a malfunctioning corpus collosum. Bit of brain that separates and co-ordinates the brain hemispheres. Leads to that male/female, logic/emotion who multitasks better stuff. Mine is there, but it's sleeping and won't wake up. It is a fantastic learning tool. My being isn't happy if I'm not sucking up knowledge or recombining it in ways that are outside the box and cylinder. The dozen hamster wheels start in my head with nothing to do. Never figured it out until I put myself in the psych ward a few years back. I've felt like a functional schizophrenic my whole life. I just said my voices all talk to each other and mostly get along. Makes life interesting.
Be a Bandage on a Suffering and B!eeding World.