I'd like to make some posts here every now and again, but I'd like to put a proper introduction here so you guys can get a better idea of who I am and why I am the way I am.
My spiritual journey began at a young age. When I was around 12/13 I began to look into psionics and making energy balls. At 14 I had been recruited by a dark worker. At the time I was very angry and confused, having suffered abuse by the hands of my mother and having two life threatening accidents before I turned 12. This dark worker told me that he could give me powers of darkness and told me to work under him. I leaped at the opportunity to feel powerful, having felt powerless most of my life. He taught me how to manipulate people and control dark energies. I had soon began to alienate myself from my friends and family. I had began to spiritually attack people at his command after having a grim reaper looking demon attached to me. I used this demon as a tool, and even wanted to become it. Around two years later I began to practice psionics again. It was around this time me and this darkworker had a falling out. He had used me to attain more darkness. I was essentially his pawn.
After this falling out, my family had moved out of the country and went to Germany. It was at this time I noticed I couldn't feel energy anymore. And I was very depressed. It felt like something was taken from me. I tried to gain it back, but I couldn't. My abilities were almost completely gone. After some time I had forgotten about psionics and focused on graduating high school. Once I graduated, I moved into my own apartment with my ex . It was at this time I began to get attacked by demons. On top of the nightmares, I would physically feel attacks and energy drains. I tried fighting it spiritually, but it never worked. My shields never held up and for a while I lived with it. I should also mention that at this time I believed I was a vampire( there is an entire underground community of these peoples) and drained energy from people. I was listless and very unhappy with my life. Me and my ex broke up, I ended up getting evicted from my apartments and was homeless for a short while.
I had family in NYC, and I lived with them. The demonic attacks continued and I began to descend into paranoia and more depression with darkness. It was at this time I figured I could be happier if I had more power. So I went to what I knew, darkness. I began to look for dark gods to pray to. (I'm so happy I didn't look up demon worship, because I'd be a different person) I literally looked up dark gods to pray to and found Maha Kali. I felt like I had known who this God was, and began to worship her every day three times a day. This helped me in the long run. It was at this time I had a dream about two women wearing a green sari and a peach sari. They were giggling at me, and I ended up flying with the woman in the peach sari. I had no clue what this meant, but I was to find out later.
Soon, I moved out of NYC and went back to Texas to live with my dad. At the time he was deployed so I was living with my step mom. I began to take to Hinduism and began to pray to Durga Maa and Kali Maa just about every night. At this time I was under an intense psychosis brought upon me by demons where I believed that everyone was a demon and I was the only human on earth. Even though I thought this, I didn't accept it and decided to leave civilization. So I went hitchhiking! My dad gave me 1000 bucks and with that I bought the gear necessary to live outdoors as a transient. Once I had my materials, I left. While I was on my journey I was still under demonic attack, but I was still being brave and tried to fight back. This is what the first half of my journey looked like. Then I had my awakening.
What happened was I was having a De ja vu of my first dream(yes I remember my first dream). I was sitting on the back of a train and I went to sleep. When I was asleep I saw this great pink light with a golden swirl in the middle and I knew I had to make the swirl spin, so I did and then angels came to me. One is my spirit guide, Jacob. After I saw them, these native American spirits came and cleansed my heart. They told me to do a specific technique that I will share just pm me. Once I did it, I felt them take out all the gunk that was in my heart and I felt my heart beat. It was so pure! I will never forget this. I'm getting emotional as I type. From there, my life as a twice born began.
I began to use those techniques those spirits taught me to ascend myself into the light. And I've been using them since. I came back to Texas to live with my dad again, as a completely changed person. And I've been trying to remain pure hearted and strong since.
Since then, I've learned that I'm a son of Thoth and Sekutet. Ra also calls me his son. I am a son of light, which is a brotherhood of 33 Angels. I have many brothers and sisters and I've met a bit of them. And as of right now, I'm trying to reach enlightenment still. I still have my history with demons, but my efforts of "fighting" consist of doing healings and destroying dark energy grids around the earth. I am not a darkworker, I strive for the light.
My name is Aetheryn, and I am a son of light! Nice to meet you all.
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