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Heather, You're an Ego-Maniac!

I have never read from a journal that was so ego-maniacal.
I am not meaning this is a cruel fashion, its just I've never read a blog that uses "I" sentiments in almost every sentence.
Did you know that there's life outside your own personal bubble? I don't want to ruin the wonderful life you appear to be presenting to the world, but, damn, do you have to present your life as having no flaws, because that scares me.
It terrifies me to think that there are people out there who are so self absorbed that they don't see the warning signs...
Though I confess, you're a fantastic writer and you have potential, but your work needs to be a little more raw.

Kathy

(Kathy never actually got my reply because the email address she gave in the guestbook bounced back. Hopefully, she will see it here.)

Hi Kathy,

Thanks for commenting on my writing. I don't get a lot of comments on that part of the site. Yes, you're right that I was an ego maniac and that I probably made my life seem perfect. Of course, my life currently is pretty sweet. I am considering sending you the writings I have done that I don't post on the site, but I'll spare you the horror. I don't mean that sarcastically either. It truly is a horror story. The story of my younger years is pretty bad. I keep meaning to share it with my visitors, but sharing positive things is much easier than sharing the negative. I have the same insecurities as anyone and I don't want people to think less of me or to be judgmental about some of the events that have occurred in my life. But I recognize that it will be helpful to people who are struggling if they can read about the bad times in my life and see how I turned it around and made my life what it currently is.

I started looking through my personal diary to find something to send to you that would help you see how things were, but I don't know. Some of it is pretty bad stuff. There's plenty of abuse, drug addiction, a murder, a kidnapping, homelessness, and much more. It's just too much to talk about, especially to someone I just met. If you want to read any of those stories, you'll have to let me know. I'm not going to just send them to you without notice.

When you say I make my life seem perfect, I can only guess you are referring to my talking about money and maybe me bragging on my (now ex) husband who treats me well. I may have gone obnoxiously overboard in my enthusiasm over the positive track that my new life is on, and I am in the process of revising the site to remove much of the immature arrogance and cynicism that permeated it previously. (Wow, that was a lot of fancy damn words in that sentence! Is there a spirit channeling through me? lol)

My life has sucked in a MAJOR way up until the last few years so when good things happen I want to shout it to the world. I also firmly believe in the Law of Attraction (you attract what you think and speak about) and I believe that if you are grateful for the things that are good in your life, you will receive more good things. The same holds true for negativity - If you dwell on what's bad in your life, you will receive more bad situations, people, and circumstances. Most people don't seem to be aware of the fact that they are dwelling on the negative. If you point it out, they deny it and make excuses. But I try to be aware of my negative thoughts and behaviors so that I'll have a better chance at changing them. I'm nowhere near perfect. I have a long way to go in my development, but I'm just happy that I am on a path of self-realization and enlightenment. I want to encourage others to follow the same path.

Thanks for visiting my site! I hope you'll come back again sometime soon. There is a lot of stuff here (like free spells) that don't have too much to do with my ego. ;) Oh yeah, what were the "warning signs" you were talking about? Warning signs for what? If you are speaking of the warning signs that occurs just before you recognize that your ego is an unnecessary and detrimental part of being human, I can thankfully say that I have now had that recognition (it was a dark, depressing day) and that ever since I received that knowledge I've been working to rid myself of the ego and allow God to work through me, permitting my body and mind to be used in whatever way the Spirit sees fit. Changing this site to a more positive atmosphere is one of the biggest jobs I have to do right now.

Thank you for your comments. They did help me see things in a new light. I appreciate you taking the time to share your concerns and thoughts with me.

Blessings,
Heather

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